..:::Live Life to the Fullest:::..

2011-01-11T00:17:00.002+08:00

I don't expect to be treated like a princess. I just want to be treated like a bride.

2011-01-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

I am tired.

2011-01-10T23:25:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2011-01-10T23:23:00.001+08:00

FRUSTRATION.

2011-01-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

I think I am too mentally tired. I need more motivation. I am referring to work.

2011-01-04T23:29:00.002+08:00

Yes, I am back. Back to regain my focus, my sanity.

So word has it that my picture is going to appear on the Recuit section of the Straits Times this Saturday. Hossan, I am guessing only you will get this message, since you probably are the only who reads my blog now. Remember to catch me on the papers this Sat!

I just got back not too long ago from the meetup with the videographer for the wedding, and I am listening to a selection of songs (235 in total) to choose the songs for the video and photo montage.

Am I a perfectionist? Maybe. I have been crying for the past two nights, guess it's time to stop.

Random thoughts.

2011-01-03T22:20:00.004+08:00

I make myself be strong; I don't even realise I am sick.

I make myself think more; I don't even think about myself at times. (That is not right all the time either, as it turns out)

I havn't been blogging for so long; I don't know how to express myself.

2011-01-03T22:16:00.001+08:00

I don't think I am greedy.

But I guess there are just some things I can't have. Not anymore.

2010-05-23T19:39:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time

I can't really remember the last time I blogged; I didn't check the page. Have been feeling it for a while - that I shd get back to blogging - but I just didn't get down to doing it.

For the past few months/year, I have been losing focus. My thoughts are so scattered I am causing my life to be the same. I hate whining about my job, becoz it simply doesn't do any good. The funny thing is, despite the fact that I do whine about my job, things somehow all work out once I reach the office. Why is it then that I feel so unsure during the weekends?

Is it PMS that I am feeling? I don't know.

I hate waking up every morning knowing that I have to go through the same routine. As I am typing all these, I feel myself holding my breath, as if I am really scared. But the thing is, there is nothing for me to scared about. Tough times at work coming ahead; it's not as though I havn't been through worse.

I don't like the way it is now. And I can't explain why. I feel I shd change a job, but not at this juncture. What is my next step? Sometimes the uncertainty could kill me.

Ahhhhhhh... I need a getaway I guess. Can't wait.

A very confused me.

2009-07-19T15:29:00.004+08:00

Lots of things happened lately. Both work n personal life.

Stupid things happened at work. Was so mad last Friday. Notwithstanding it turned out to be a misunderstanding, he shdn't haf done dat. N the other party shdn't haf either. Couldn't stop thinking about it all the way to now.

Sometimes I don't understand how being the person I used to be is wrong, n being the person I haf been moulded into is wrong too. When I did things to show my concern, I was wrong. I put in the effort to do certain things, nah, dint turn out too well either. And then I did less. It was wrong too. I felt so upset dat day. My heart ached.

Not saying doesn't mean I don't care. Sometimes I really don't know what to do.

I haf got to be stronger.

On a happier note, I hope to bring my sis to BKK to shop!! Hopefully, it can materialise. But somehow I can foresee a million obstacles ahead. Well, I shall take it as it comes.

Yep, it's Sunday afternoon n I am back in the office. It's gonna be like this all the way till end of November I guess. I hope I will be able to tide through.

Jiayou! Or Jiayou? *Sigh*

2009-06-09T00:04:00.005+08:00

In Desperate Need of a Holiday

I guess its been too long I last penned my thoughts that I m losing focus.

Need a break. Want something different. Get things done.

I guess the disappointment is great becoz I actually did sth for it, but I think its primarily becoz I really thought it was gg to happen.

Jus the day before it was gg to happen, I realised it nv wld. Its not about the fact that I am the only one feeling the disappointment, and that you are feeling it too. It was becoz it was so near, and then it vanished, jus like that. Perhaps I could haf caught hold of it. Could I really haf? I doubt so.

When is it really gg to happen? This year-end? Why do I feel like I m lying to myself?

I feel down each time I recollect the images I had formed in my mind. I had already thought of what I want to wear, which pair of shades I want to bring, the sundresses and hat I want to buy jus for the trip.

And I still don't get why I got shouted at the other day. I certainly didnt cause the whole drama.

Probably the stress at work is getting too much. If I dont get a holiday soon, I am afraid the stress, anger and disappointment is gg to eat me alive.

2009-06-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

I want a getaway. =(

2009-03-27T18:43:00.001+08:00

Disappointed.

2009-02-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

Thank You Baobao

The Valentine's Day gift this year simply swept me off my feet. *Smitten*

I am having a silly grin on my face now; the more I look at it, the more I like it.

My silly grin spells "Happy", but my heart is screaming "Sheepish" on the inside. I hadnt gotten Baobao a gift! Oooopppss.

The gift is so sweet even my parents feel sweet for me.

So so loved. ^_^

2009-02-15T01:22:00.005+08:00

Sweet Valentine's Day 2009

A day at the zoo wif Bao. We were both nua, n we agreed that it wasnt as good as the first time we went tgt. Hees, its probably cuz of the age, though it probably is jus becoz it isnt the first time we r there tgt.

Left the zoo and took the bus to Ang Mo Kio and had Ichiban Sushi. The curry was surprisingly good! No extravagant V-day meal; jus a simple lovey dovey meal wif my Bao.

A few words to Bao:

Bao, thanks for the lovely day. Though we may not be the most romantic couple of all, nor do we haf enuf moolah (not yet anyway) to afford everything we want, I jus want you know - I love you, jus the way you are. The words you told me today, I will always remember them. Thank you for today, thank you for the sweet thoughtful gift which is on the way. This gesture means alot to me. To be honest, whether or not we get the gift eventually is not impt, wats impt is you haf the thought and I witnessed wat you did to try and make it happen. :)

Bao, lets work hard tgt. For I know, we haf a great future ahead, one which we already are on the path to.

Love ya lots and Happy Valentine's Day.

Pictures at the zoo:

Us. Us. Us.

My sweet valentine.

Of coz, last but certainly not the least, Happy Friendship Day to all my dear friends!

^_^

2008-12-03T16:13:00.000+08:00

Today is the day!

I m flying to Baobao, literally!

Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

2008-10-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

Baobao is a sweetie. He gave me a tour ard his apartment by taking a video of it, n he introducing each section of the house in the clip. Hees. I had wanted to upload the video but Baobao insisted that I dun becoz his apartment is in a mess! N he said he's waiting for me to go tidy the house for him. Wat a nerve!

Bao bought me another teddy bear. It wears a shirt with the words "Sleepless in Seattle". Baobao said he wish I was there wif him in Seattle, n everywhere he has been. Yea I wanna be there too.

Two more months.

I m trying very hard to think back. How I had survived last year. I was unbelievably positive. It seems so unreal now.

POSITIVE.

2008-10-05T01:02:00.000+08:00

Bao, I miss you. So so much.

2008-10-01T14:06:00.005+08:00

Booked!!!

Its booked n the countdown begins. In exactly 9 weeks' time, I wld be on the plane to Houston!!!

I was pretty lucky. Jus yest, I checked the tickets in office and was about to make the booking when Baobao said, "Why not u do it at home, its easier n we can discuss tgt." So I postponed the booking. When I checked the price yest, it was S$2,988. Today, the fare dropped and the bill is S$2,767 and I save S$221!! Weeeeeee! **Totally thrilled** Thanks Bao!

Baobao says he is waiting for me with open arms! Heeeeeess. With the tickets booked, I finally haf sth concrete to look forward to.

I m gg to soldier thru these tough tough two mths with a smile on my face!

Heeeeeesssss. I can hardly wipe that grin off my face.

Baobao here I come!!!

2008-09-30T01:05:00.000+08:00

Not anymore.

2008-09-21T22:42:00.006+08:00

Specially for Bao

As requested, Baobao, here r pics of me for u!!

On the cab for my trial final theory test

At the bus stop waiting for bus.

Hees. Bao, now u see me oredi. Happy anot? I got slim down anot?? Muahaha.

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Baobao is in Seattle now. Here r two pics he sent:

Bao in the jacket I bought him. =)

Hees. Bao cut his hair. Its really funny how he can look ten years different wif long n short hair. My Bao is young again! But Bao, I thought u said u wanted to keep ur hair long for me to see in Dec?

I hope December comes soon!

2008-09-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed my weekend.

Met up wif SBB for some shopping. Den caught up wif Hossan n YQ for dinner. Haha. Its been a long time. I miss the days when we would just head to wherever came to our mind. Those days in Year One. Of coz, the driver was a different person den. Many things have changed since. Muahah. This is ultra sensitive to YQ. But well, yea, those days were fun. The Tiong Bahru Market gang dispersed awkwardly; but we soon formed another gang of 4 gals n 1 guy – WF, YQ, me, SBB n Hossan. Why 4 gals n 1 guy? Only we know. Haha.

Yeps, while shopping wif SBB yesterday, many funny things happened. When we were making our way from Vivo to Orchard, we lost our way n ended up driving to places we dint know. It took us quite long before we finally reached Shaw carpark. N while shopping, certain bimbotic acts of SBB caused me to laugh so hard and it really made my day. Muahaha. YQ n Hossan, u guys weren’t there to experience it in person. U wld haf laughed as hard as I did.

Anyways. So we made the impromptu decision to go to Keppel Island. That was not smooth either. We ended up on the expressway and reached Bukit Timah but from there we were able to make our way to Keppel Island via Queensway route. Haha. None of us had been to the place before, so we searched high n low, left n right for the sign to lead us to Keppel Island. When we saw it, we oredi went past it! Dat led us to the first U-turn. We then U-turned again, only to realize that it was a turn too early n it was past the correct turn oredi. Second U-turn. Inclusive of the U-turns to go back to the correct direction, I think we made 5 U-turns altogether. Muahahaha. But it was so fun!

So we took a stroll on Keppel Island. It was more of a place for couples I thought. Hees. After drinks and desserts at TCC, we headed for Laa-bra-dor park. Very bimbo Hossan asked if it was time to turn immediately at the next turn after we exited from the lane out of Keppel Island. *Sweats* The funnier thing was actually YQ’s reaction. She snapped, “还久啦!” Muahahahahahaha. There was a moment of awkward silence in the car, n den everyone burst into laughter. Hossan Hossan, dat kinda mistake, no one cld help u.

Last night was good, except of coz for the fact dat everyone was tired. Working adults. Sigh. But it was some sort of resemblance to the days when we went taking photos on the railway track in Clementi, trekking in Msia, studying for exams, taking photos while we shd be studying, laughing at the most nonsensical things etc.

SBB, thanks for the ride in ur new car, though I wasn’t the second female passenger as u had promised. Haha. Its ok though, YQ n I got to be the third n fourth. I still rem u said if I need u to pick me up u wld do so hor! Dun go back on ur words den. Haha.

Great night out. When are we gg to Henderson Wave, go cycling, n take pics in the gown tgt?!?! Lets make a date in January next year shall we? I wld be very free den! Haha.

Hanging out wif these guys never fail to remind me of the best things dat happened to me in university. I guess life wld haf been a lot less fun without them. Archery n friends are the most unforgettable in my university life. Friends from Archery, friends from the two trekking trips, Team PooH. N there’s also Bao. NTU marked a different stage of my life, n led me on to a very different path. I made things right, n I m proud of it. Never mind the academic regret; life was good. Grateful to everyone n everything who made it happen.

2008-09-14T14:23:00.002+08:00

Headed out to rebond my hair. But came back soon after.

Its weird; I am having a sore throat and sneezing non-stop. Given the amount of durian mooncake I haf been eating, having a sore throat is not unexpected at all. The cold - that is unexpected.

2008-09-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

Punching the phone, calling every single possible number on my phone, using the calling card, using the home phone, using the handphone...

I must haf done dat for at least half an hr. Hurricane Ike is hitting Houston.

I heaved a sigh of relief when I finally got Bao.

Just wish you understand.

2008-09-05T23:09:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!!

Baobao, you are so far away now. How I wish I can gif u a Happy Birthday hug! Hmmm, make it up to you in Dec k? Hees. Budden u not here spend my birthday this year wif me too. So, we're even!

Bao, very soon it will be December. Hees. I really can feel it. One day passes by so quickly it scares me sometimes. Budden when I think of seeing u in Dec, I wish time wld pass even faster.

Baobao u jiayou in Houston k? I will be joining u shortly!!!

Happy 27th birthday!

Lots of hugs n kisses. ^_^

2008-09-01T18:43:00.001+08:00

Can anyone understand what I am feeling?

Dilemmas, stress, fatigue, frustration, helplessness.

2008-08-24T19:02:00.003+08:00

Relaxing day.

Went for facial. Came out n saw the rain. Shopped at Tiong Bahru Plaza, bought a top n it was still raining. Decided to buy a magazine n haf dinner at Mos Burger to wait for the rain to be smaller. When I finished my unagi rice burger meal, the rain got heavier.

I went home.

Watched the Olympics closing ceremony n heading for bed now. Early night for me.

Finally getting sth in order.

Nitey.

2008-08-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

Regret saying too much. It makes my point out of point.

2008-08-04T22:52:00.003+08:00

Long Overdue Meet-up

Finally met up wif SBB today. Its been the longest time. SBB hasnt been turning up for gatherings due to his hectic work schedule, but I guess things will get better after he got his car.

It was a great meet-up. Miss the talks we used to haf. He was my Mr Agony throughout my three years in NTU and I played my part by listening to his whinings too. Haha. SBB says it seems he turns into a "girl" only when he is wif me. Er, not sure if dats a good thing, but its ok u noe!

So I was complaining bout me gaining weight n nicey SBB said I did not put on any. It was not before long he pointed out exactly I had put on weight. He was spot on.

The night went on wif lots of argument, about guy n girl. He honestly shd tok to Baobao, maybe Baobao can gif him a tutorial on it. Hahaha.

Aniwaes. So we were at Ding Tai Fung n when it was our turn to go, the waitress said, "两位小姐这边请". Muahahahaha. SBB said such things happened only when I m ard.

Okie, its been a disorganised entry. Haha. My main motive really is to jus note down the highlight of the day, so that I will rem it in the many years to come. Heeees.

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Peak Period Syndrome

It really is. I got it again. The bak ziam thingy.

I got it twice the last peak. *Gulps* Hope I dun get it again after this round. Choyyyy.

Hafta wear specs for a wk I think. The pair of specs I m wearing out has become loose. I need a new pair. Attempted to make one during lunch today but cldnt pick out one which I had impulse to buy. Haha. Thanks to Jing n Wen for giving me advice.

Wonder when I can get the pair of specs done. Super procrastinator. Dats me.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

I haf so many thoughts in my mind. Too lazy to blog them down. Too tired to think them through. Too unmotivated to make things right.

Been feeling empty, frustrated, stressed. I want lots of free time but when I haf it, my thoughts run wild. Thinking deep into sth, when theres nothing at all.

Wat is wrong wif me?

2008-08-02T00:50:00.006+08:00

Waffle-maker

I finally haf a waffle maker!! Thanks to my beloved frens YQ, WF, Hossan, Jason n SBB!! Haha. N I really did believe Hossan that he won the machine from his company lucky draw, though I had also thought to myself why there wld be a lucky draw when its not even DND. Haha.

Guys, thanks for the gift. I think I haf been requesting it for the past few years oredi. So next year I wld be getting a cash register? Hahaha. Really surprised n delighted. Absolutely delighted. Muacks!

P.S. Hossan, ur pronunciation of "laa-bra-door" really cracked me up. It made my night. Haha. At ur expense, but I m sure u wun mind. =)

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I secretly wonder how this year's peak is gg to be like. No Baobao travelling down to Raffles jus to haf dinner wif me b4 I continue to fight the night away. No eating Sakae sushi at UOB. No Baobao bringing me to satisfy the many cravings I haf. No Baobao to hold my hand through. Though I know he is far far away in US supporting me.

Baobao said sth sweet today. In his sms he said, he really wanted to bring me along to the States, if not for my job in Singapore; he wld marry me straight away n bring me as his spouse. Brought a smile to my face.

I m missing Baobao. Terribly.

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Stress is piling up. N there r 4 more mths to go. Its only the starting actually. I m really really excited about December bvt its a dilemma for me. Each day zooms past, bringing me a day closer to Dec, but also a day closer to the submission deadline. Excitement n stress coming tgt - its more than jus mixed feelings.

I shd blog more often. Makes me clear-headed. Makes me face my inner feelings. Keeps me organised.

2008-07-30T22:40:00.003+08:00

Bad day.

Glad its coming to an end. Guess it happens sometimes. Every once in a blue moon.

Glad to meet Jun for lunch todae. Complained bout the unfortunate events to someone who understands. Certainly turned my day ard. Aniwae gal, the hot chocolate from Mr Tea is not bad; lets go back again.

Felt like puking the whole day. Havnt been well the past few days.

I need to release.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

2008-07-27T22:31:00.005+08:00

Great Savings/Spending

Today I went to get the Coach wristlet Baobao bought for me from our hall fren! Hees. According to Bao, this is jus one part of my bday present n when I am over in the States he wld buy me sth huge, for e.g. a Kate Spade!!

The wristlet is black n Bao meant it to replace the pouch I have been using. He had secretly been of YQ cos I have been using the pouch YQ gave me for the longest time. Therefore, he is retaliating now! Haha. Nah, kidding. I made that up. Keke.

The pouch:

So I was out today. While waiting for our fren to appear with the wristlet, I went shopping. Bought a top from Zara. After getting the wristlet I headed over to Raffles City to get some Biotherm stuff; me moisturiser had run out a wk ago. I bought two bottles of the moisturiser n I was told by the salesperson that if I spent $180, I wld get $20 off the purchase. Cheapo me grabbed the offer of cos. Ended up buying another mask. Haha. The tab went like this. Total was $196, less $20 as promised, n less $30 thanks to the Robinsons voucher Baobao gave me. N there u go, a bill of $196 became $146! N there were freebies too! One pouch, one zip lock bag n range of trials. Hurray!!

My loot:

Haha. So the trip out cost me $200. I shd stay at home more often. Haha.

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Went for my company's Sports Day yesterday, though I had tried to avoid it as much as I cld. My mgr convinced me it wld be awesome but nah, it was not near to being fun. Aniwae, I received my silver medal for carrom, n becos some of my colleagues left early, I had to go get the medals for two other colleagues too.

The medals I brought home:

My carrom medal.

Gold, silver, bronze. All in.

So the mgr who promised the fun treated me to pizza at a place at Bukit Timah. It was good. I cant rem the name but I do rem the way to get there. Its right beside RGPS. Throughout the meal we were arguing about lots of intellectual stuff. Its funny. I won in all topics. Cheers to me. Haha.

Came home, took a good bath, n headed down to the pasar malam with Sis to grab food. We are both really greedy I feel. Haha. Aniwae, I finally got to eat sotong ball.

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So now I m waiting for Bao to wakie n come online. Hees. Stoopid Bao called me Xiaoroubao. He is DA LONG BAO.

Baoz, I finally got the wristlet. I have transferred all my stuff in there. Hees. I will be bringing it to lunch everyday. Tmr's Monday again. Soooo sian. I have alot waiting for me this week. In fact every week. I wan December to come. It will be an awesome month wun it? I cant help but smile when I think bout it. =)

2008-07-27T02:17:00.003+08:00

Wat do I do in office everyday?

Having endured the torture of waking up every morning, withstood the test of my patience in the morning trains I struggle getting into, I reach the office at about 0855 hrs every morning. With some hiccups, I reach at 9 or slightly after.

In the beginning few weeks, the first thing I wld do when I reached the office, other than switching on my pc, I wld mark a cross on my calendar. Of late, I haf made myself accumulate 3 or 4 days before I mark the crosses, in an attempt to make myself feel that time is passing more quickly.

Jus as I begin to feel many days have passed, I do a count, only to realise that there are more ahead. Still, I did not let that bring me down. I soldier on; but no matter how strong I am I have my weak moments. Moments which I cant really afford to have.

N so the day wld end probably at 9 plus at nite, if I do not have any appointment that day. By then, I m burnt out.

Why do I work hard?

Becos I have a portfolio. One which I aim to complete. One which I have to complete.

Becos I want to make the holiday in December happen.

Why do I not blog?

No energy to? No mood to? Or maybe becos I have lost interest in blogging cos I subconsciously feel that I have found ppl to listen to me in person. N I do not wan to rely on virtual space to vent my feelings.

Notwithstanding the above, here I am, doing jus what I do not want to do.

Daily routine includes: Checking the SIA website, checking the US currency rates, checking ur blog.

These past few days many things happened. I m scared. I m frustrated. I m tired.

I need sleep. Plenty of it. The sad thing is, I havnt been sleeping well n I cant sleep much.

I have a big bruise on each of my legs; I have no idea how I got them. I only rem bumping into my desk at work the other day.

I wasnt trying to be difficult. I really wasnt.

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Alrite, enuf of the nonsense. Looking back, I mus say I have done well. The past 2 mths havnt been easy, but I have been able to get through it. No crying alone, no threatening Bao to make him come back at once, no nothing. Occasional hiccups here n there, but we have done well Baobao.

Bao, I noe u miss me. I miss u too. I have been taking good care of myself. Promise u will too?

I m gg to bed. Headache's giving me a hard time. Nite nite to me.

2008-07-08T22:10:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME!!

Loved.

Heartfelt thanks to one n all for the well wishes!

Pandans got the ball rolling by surprising me wif a Rum n Cherry cake from Awfully Chocolate. Hee. I was touched. The words on the cake were really sweet.

Pandans, thanks for the cake n ur love!! I love u gals too!

N for the actual day, my colleagues, Shin n Regina, treated me to lunch at TCC. I always enjoy their company becoz they r funny n we can gossip tgt! Haha.

I received two cakes in the office - one by the seniors, and one by my fellow associates. They caught me by surprise for the first round I forgot to take pictures! Wat a waste. The lovely seniors bought me a mango cake from Royals, one of my fave cake shops! Hees. Some managers were there as well, n everyone was like saying, "She's only 23. So young!!" They were all very envious of the number of candles on my cake. Keke. Thanks seniors.

Next round was a chocolate cake from Prima Deli. It was huge! My fren cut me bout an eighth of the entire cake I think. After finishing the cakes from both rounds, I had no space left for dinner. Haha.

My dear fellow associates, in stark contrast to the seniors, not only did not envy how few candles I had on my cake, but instead kept thinking dat there shd be 24 candles instead of 23. Even Angela tot the same, n she is the same age as I am! Infuriating. Haha.

Pics from the second round:

The cake

Me n the cake

The girls - (starting from the right) Me, Hermione, Xinyi, Shin n Angela

Wif Kern n Gim

Shin n Regina

Though my colleagues may never see this post, I wanna say I really appreciate all dat they haf done for me today. I was really touched.

After the two rounds of celebration, I dashed off to meet my family for dinner. It was simple fare at the zi char stall 新海山 at Tiong Bahru. Wanted to treat my family to sth more expensive but my parents dint wan me to spend too much. =) Packed a crab home. It was huge n spicy. I only tasted the gravy becoz I was sooooo full. Still am now.

Of coz, though Baobao is half the world away from me, he dint forget my bdae the least bit! He sent me flowers! Baobao got his brother to order the flowers n had them sent to my office.

Here's the bouquet:

3 sunflowers n 3 champagne roses!

Me wif the lovely bouquet

See the other bouquet in the background? Dats the one Baobao sent me during Valentine's Day this year. I haf 6 sunflowers altogether!

The flowers are lovely. Thank you Baobao.

My colleagues asked why Baobao kept sending me sunflowers. Baobao's answer to dat: "Becoz you are like sunflowers - bright and cheery. N u brighten up my life."

Happy happy birthday. ^_^

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I miss Baobao.

2008-06-18T12:13:00.002+08:00

Enough's said. Its a shame you cant share wat is of good news to me.

2008-06-16T20:28:00.001+08:00

I miss walking ard Takashimaya basement wif Baobao looking for food. Boooo.

2008-06-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

Happy Father's Day

Today was a lazy day for the Lee family. We played mahjong from 1 till 6 pm, went for dinner downstairs n returned home n continued with the second round. Haha.

Yesh, today is Father's Day. However, it turned out that Daddy n Mummy lost over a hundred dollars to Sis n me. Muahaha. They werent having the best of luck I guess.. Heez.

Good day it was.

*Smiles*

2008-06-15T01:03:00.003+08:00

Visited one of my managers' place today. The place was beautiful. It was featured in one of the magazines! It certainly brought me some fantasy as to what I can do with my future home. So many ideas out of a sudden.

Went for Baobao's family bbq after. It was fun. Nice talking to Baobao's cousins.

Tired. Need more rest. Shall head to town tmr to get what I have been wanting to get.

********

While I was on the train just now, there was this lady in front of me. She took out her iPod n I cant help but notice the lovely pouch. N I thought, I dun think I wld ever buy an iPod of my own. When was the last time I bought sth which I really like for myself? Last year in the States. I bought the Guess watch for my bdae. When was the last time I did sth really nice for myself? It never happened before becoz I wldnt make the effort to.

This is probably why I cant help but have hope when I put in alot of effort to do sth for someone. Hope that my efforts will be reciprocated. Hope that my efforts will be appreciated. But what happens when the amount of appreciation I receive is a far cry from the amount of effort I have put in. What if I m told I dint have to do that at all?

I hate that statement becoz it simply puts everything I have done down the drain. N also becoz, that is an unfair statement.

The word "effort" just brings back bad memories.

I secretly regret rejecting to go up the Singapore Flyer. Whenever I think of it, I always go "Damn". Is it what they call once you pass the chance you may never get it again? True indeed.

Damn.

2008-06-13T23:54:00.009+08:00

TGIF

First Friday without Baobao in SG. Last Friday I went wif Baobao to temples n did last minute shopping before helping him to pack his luggage. Wow dat feels so long ago.

Baobao brought me to Secret Garden last Tuesday. It feels like ages ago too. I had a fun night. After the expensive dinner we went to chill out at Mr Bean before heading home. Ohhh, speaking of which I am missing Baobao sitting by my side, ordering my fave dessert for me, holding my hand, saying sweet things to me, n even making me angry.

Secret Garden:

Work has been rough. I havnt been able to rebound from my holiday mood since the trip to HK n the many four-days weeks I have been enjoying. Five working days suddenly seem too much. In the past, I dint really treat Friday as a working day as I noe I wld leave office early n meet Baobao. Today, it took forever for 5.30 to come.

Chilled out with my colleagues at Jazz Bar after work to celebrate our promotion. Gossiped n complained - we actually spent more than 5 hours talking. Splendid. We went to Ricciotti for desserts. I brought them there for the half price cakes but it turned out that the deal was no longer applicable for dine-in. Booo. I had gelato in the end. I order pistachio and passion fruit ice-cream with caramel sauce. Had thought that the passion fruit flavour wld be sweet, but it turned out to be uber sour. So sour that the caramel sauce was tasteless in comparison. I left that scoop untouched.

Weekend suddenly does not feel so exciting. Nonetheless, I appreciate the time to rest.

Baobao Baobao, dun be notti in the States. Keep that Haagen Daz -eating in check. You do not want to waste your effort gg to the gym. Take care, eat well, drink more water n pay for my airfare! Haha. Jiayou k? I support ya.

2008-06-08T11:57:00.004+08:00

SAFE

Baobao landed safely in the States n is on his way to his apartment. I hope his apartment is the same as in the picture on the website. Cuz its gorgeous.

Yes, Baobao is gonna live in a place like a serviced apartment for six mths. As per the website, the facilities n deco etc are GORGEOUS. There's a gym, pool, n more. He's got a car too.

I m envious. I wanna be there too.

Okie, I wanna be there becoz Baobao is there.

2008-06-07T21:08:00.001+08:00

Yippeee!

Baobao just called home. He is now in Moscow for transit.

=)

2008-06-07T13:51:00.007+08:00

TODAY

And so Baobao boarded the plane to Houston this morning. It was a hasty departure, as the boarding gate was closing so Baobao had to rush. No tears for me. Not even when Baobao n I were on opposite sides of the glass n I watched him go through the customs.

However, as Baobao turned back n waved, tears welled. I guess the truth finally set in. No amount of packing n preparation felt more real. I suddenly realised dat Baobao was really leaving for the States.

I dint wave back, becoz I dint want to.

The moment Baobao disappeared from behind the pillar marked the moment dat I was not gg to see Baobao again until 6 mths later. The scene was all so familiar. A year ago, I was the one setting off. I rem wanting to give Baobao a hug before I went in the gate, n he rejected cuz my parents were present n he was embarrassed. A long time later after I was back, he asked why I went in the gate so abruptly. Hmmmm.

Today was certainly abrupt. But dat may not be a bad thing at all. At least there wasnt time for emotions to be cultivated. N for dat matter, tears. As Baobao waved n disappeared from sight, I turned ard n saw Baobao's dad. My eyes were watery n he looked me in the eye. I m not sure if Baobao's dad saw my tears. I think I did hold my tears back pretty well.

There was a moment when I was standing alone. If I was all alone, I would have cried out. Thank goodness there were so many ppl there. Phew. Was at the airport sending Baobao off when he went to Taiwan for reservist last year. The feeling was not at all the same.

Baobao should be on the plane now, watching movies or playing his PSP. Or eating. Hee. Baobao loves to nua n I m glad he has the chance to do so on the plane. Though it would be really dry for the throat n skin.

N so the 6 mths start. For weeks n even mths I have been dreading n looking forward to this. Dreading, becoz Baobao wld be half the globe away. Looking forward, becoz once the 6 mths start ticking, I am nearer to seeing Baobao again with each minute dat passes. =)

********

I have calculated. Twelve timesheets is all it will take. By the time I submit my 12th timesheet from now. I wld be seeing Baobao again. Cheers.

Decided on using 12 timesheets instead of 6 mths or 24 weeks or 180 days.

6 mths is out becoz one mth sounds long to get by.

24 weeks becoz "24" seems like a large number out of a sudden.

180 days obviously is out becoz I wld have to mark a cross on my calendar 180 times. Dat wld take too long.

12 timesheets is good becoz a week will sneak past not dat slowly, n before I know it I wld be repeating the process of doing up my timesheet. There, two weeks wld have passed. =)

I know I m being silly becoz they are essentially all the same period of time. Who cares. As long as it seems shorter to me.

********

Baobao, do rem to apply the lip balm when necessary k? Drink more water. Haha. I m still saying this though by the time you see this, you wld have alighted the plane. But well. I am missing you obviously. You take care of yourself k? You gotta take care of me when you are back.

Lets both jiayou together k? For work, for us. Muacks.

2008-06-06T00:06:00.003+08:00

Something dawned on me.

I used to say it ever so often but I haf never given any serious thought to it.

What just happened made me realise, I should.

Upon deeper thinking, things start to fall into perspective and I m no longer sure if what I haf been feeling is right.

Its often easy for one to close one eye to things which one does not see. The challenge then is to be able to turn away from things which you haf already seen.

Well, for me, I know very well which category I fall into. Lets just say I am bad at pretence, or some may say, I am just being zuan1 niu2 jiao3 jian1.

********

Regrets... Its the worst feeling one can ever have. At least in my humble opinion.

Perhaps its becoz I haf far too many regrets in my life. Through my falls I learn to not repeat the same mistake. Try as I may, I still fo through the same falls. Why?

Sometimes I guess it does not mmatter how much in your heart you want to do something for someone, what really is important is how much that person wants you to do. I wld say, its got both good and bad. Even if you haf done a million, it doesnt make a difference if the other party only wanted you to do a hundred in the first place.

I am trying my best. I am putting in my best. IF anyone knows what I have been doing lately, tghat person would call me a fool. Although, if the roles were reversed, I wouldnt call that person a fool.

********

I should stay focused. Promotion list is gonna be out next week. Remember my dream, work towards it. I never wanna fail myself again.

2008-06-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

I am doing my part.

Its subjective.

2008-06-02T23:26:00.001+08:00

Big sigh.

I don't want anything. Not.

2008-05-10T00:13:00.011+08:00

I m having gastric flu. Its the worst one ever. Ohh, I never want to haf it again. Getting on in age; cant take such pain animore.

Baobao went to the US embassy todae. Guess his visa wld be ready next wk, after which he wld be flying off anitime from den. Hmmm. I told Baobao not to miss me in the States becoz dat wld make his life better. Heez. Well well.

Went shopping for a luggage n I warned Baobao sternly not to complain about having to buy a luggage. Keke. Its so funny dat he called me at the office the other day n talked about having to go get a luggage n started complaining bout having to get one. It was a funny conversation. Baobao laughed too.

Baobao came by my place n we watched the first disc of Alvin and the Chipmunks. Took some pics while Baobao was trying to keep himself awake.

Baobao was lying flat. I was sitting beside him. Its hard to take pics lidat. N there were a few other pics which Baobao dint bother to look into the camera. *Pinch*

I entertained myself while Baobao was trying not to doze off.

There's a jigsaw puzzle hanging on the wall behind my head. N I covered it totally. Does it imply anithing? Booooo.

Okie HK is slightly more than a week away. Packing and unpacking. Shopping n eating. Cheers.

******

The other day I was reading through Baobao's blog. He started it when I was in the States last year. I am realli touched dat he started a blog for me - to keep me updated n stuff. Tears welled up in my eyes when I was reading it. I felt how he felt when I was in the States. He's so gonna pay me double now. Hee. Okie you win Baobao. I gave you 3 mths n you are giving me 6. Keke. Dun miss me while you are there. Just remember dat I m supporting you in SG, working hard and waiting patiently for you to come back. =)

This is crappy. Six mths suddenly feel like an awfully long time.

It is. It is not.

2008-05-05T22:55:00.007+08:00

Monday Blues

Dint manage to touch a single bit of what I had planned to at work. Too many impromptu urgencies. Too many eeeky tasks.

Realli glad to haf a chance to help out n be part of a project - I am totally making the most out of this opportunity given to me. A major plus point is that I am doing this wif an assistant manager who is patient n willing to teach (that's very impt). We are in the team for another horrible case. Both of our faces turn sour at the mention of the name. True enuf, its been giving us headaches, though I always manage to shake dat headache off rather quickly since I am like the mini fly on the job. The AM is the one wif the biggest headache I feel.

But oh well, this project is sth I haf nv done before. Not even in NTU. This is interesting cuz of the many many projects done during university days, none was of this topic. Though its a well-known fact that tax is a very specialised field, I do feel myself learning more n more each day. =)

It is scary, however, to see one of your peers already leaving tax n pursuing her interests in another field. I doubt I will ever be like that, since I haf no interests whatsoever. Pathetic haha. But I guess its precisely this characteristic of mine which will enable me to last in this line, n I hope I do.

In three months' time it would be a year anniversary of work for me. It sounds awfully short given that I feel like I haf been working since forever. N I totally feel like an old bird (not in the technical expertise, but the administrative aspects etc) in the office. Heard the rumour that the fresh grads would be starting work in June n I am really hoping that their starting pay would be $2.6 grand, becoz that goes to say that everyone else would haf a $200 adjustment in their salaries. *Fingers crossed*

I m still feeling the after-effect of what I had been trying to do on the bus home juz now. Giddy n all. No I did not do anything bad or stupid on the bus. But maybe I should not do it again.

Monday is over. Here comes Tuesday. Harloe Tuesday.

Yeah, bring it on. Lets see how I m gg to tide through these two weeks before I go on leave. Maybe I shd camp in the office. Maybe I shd bring work home. Maybe I shd jus heck care. Maybe my work will work themselves. Maybe I will be very slim tmr. Maybe I will reach office on time tmr. Maybe it will rain tmr. Maybe I will be wearing a skirt tmr. Ok I am crazy I know.

Of coz, not forgetting...

HAPPY BDAE in advance LYDIA!!! May you stay pretty always n may all things be perfect for you! Muacks.

2008-05-03T00:11:00.004+08:00

Sleepless nights. Though I wait till I m totally wiped out before I get to bed, I still cant fall asleep. Sigh.

Took a half day today. Hectic AM at work. More to come in the next two weeks. I hate to think bout it. Anihow, I had an enjoyable day. Met Bui for lunch n den went wif him to collect his cashier order. I kept disturbing him todae haha. ^_^

Met Jun thereafter n went for a foot, hand n shoulder massage. It got realli painful on my neck, n I had realli wanted to ask the auntie whether she disliked me n hence the mighty strength on my toes, back n neck.

Dinner was Korean steamboat wif Team PooH. The food was realli good and the price reasonable. Shall go back again soon. Forgot to take pics wif Team PooH though. Booo. Nonetheless, it was a fun gathering.

Pics for the day.

My Baobao so cuteeeeee!!!

Check out the eye bags. See what sleepless nights do to ya? Sobz.

Havnt taken pics for a long time. Realli realli miss having lots of pics on my blog. But somehow, pics dun come by easily now.

2008-04-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

Life's monotonous. Life's good. Life's sweet.

Monotonous cuz its juz work-eat-sleep n the cycle repeats. Good cuz its simple n I learn alot at work. Sweet cuz of Baobao, of coz.

2008-04-20T01:24:00.003+08:00

I m feeling quite blank. For no particular reason. Muz be the PMS.

Went swimming wif Baobao today. Heez. Finally worked my muscles/flabs a little.

Sigh. I m having second thoughts. I wish I can go back in time. Fast-forwarding time wld be good too.

I m thinking too much. Am I? Thinking bout things which haf not happened seem pretty redundant. But when things happen, is it too late to think bout it only then? Is there still a point?

Big sigh. PMS pls go away.

2008-04-14T00:22:00.002+08:00

Me myself n I.

2008-04-06T22:10:00.001+08:00

I haf a love-hate relationship wif Sundays.

2008-04-06T01:21:00.005+08:00

I m revolving back n forth in my world of thoughts. Its depressing n infuriating.

2008-03-29T00:21:00.002+08:00

TGIF!!!

Finally its Friday. Wat a tough week it has been.

I am very happy todae. Becoz I finished quite some work n also, I bought the VCD for "Alvin and the Chipmunks"! Theodore!!! So cuteeeeeeee.

PMS is really horrible. I was all set to spend some money on titbits such as Tim Tams etc. Thank goodness I saw the VCD before I could sink my claws into the titbits. Pimple n weight crisis adverted.

Baobao was CareBear Megazord today. Haha. He wore a shirt wif all the CareBear colors. He actually prefers the name "Megazord" to "Baobao". He says it sounds more man. Mannnn.

Baobao got a haircut n looks about ten years younger! Keke. I love Baobao wif short hair.

2008-03-24T22:34:00.004+08:00

I passed my basic theory test!

This is like a milestone for me. I finally got started. At least one new year resolution is fulfilled.

Hee. Baobao accompanied me to the test thankfully. He revised the stuff wif me juz b4 I went in to take the test and turned out dat alot of the questions he asked me (and I answered wrongly) came out!! He kept shaking his head cuz I kept giving him nonsense answers. Haha. I m bad at studying. Thanks again Baobao!!

I was the second one to come out of the room cuz I had finished the questions. I ended the test not becoz I was confident I wld pass, but becoz I was impatient. Maybe it was not a bad thing I dint stay in there longer cuz when I was meddling wif my answers for the second time, I changed the answer for one of the question and ended getting the wrong answer when I had gotten it right the first time round. I suppose I juz passed. But its okie. The score wasnt shown. I passed.

I was half expecting myself to fail since I havnt had any luck wif MCQs aniwae. Credit shd go to Baobao, who helped me spot questions; my colleague, Kern, who gave me the website to try out the trial questions; and of coz to Jun, who lent me the book!!! Thanx gal!

The day was tough. But I feel accomplished today cuz I managed to finish what I wanna. It was no mean feat. I was so tensed dat I pulled a long face when I met Baobao for dinner. Heez. But he cheered me up soon after. Thank goodness there was Baobao. =)

Time to brave myself for the harsh week ahead. Looking forward to Friday and Saturday. Why isnt there another long weekend?

2008-03-24T00:36:00.002+08:00

I suddenly remembered this.

Baobao was really funny. I showed him my biceps and asked if I had two lil mice. He said dat my arms were more muscular in the past. Den naturally I asked him wat my arms were like now. He knew he was gg to say sth wrong, so he refused to answer. Upon my pressing him, he relented n said, "A lil flabby now." Hahaha. Of coz I pinched him. Den I told him dat he could haf juz said "Not as muscular now". Dat wld haf saved him alot of trouble. Den he went like, "Oh yah hor."

I love to tease Baobao this way. He really doesnt haf a way wif words. Keke. Its so easy to trick him into saying the wrong things. ^_^

********

I haf always complained to Baobao dat he was not romantic enuf. So there was this day we were walking in Bugis Junction n he suddenly said, "Xiaopang, I m trying to say it in the most romantic way I can. Since I just got my bonus, shall I buy you the ring you haf been eyeing?"

Haha. Its so funny dat he declared dat he was trying to sound romantic before he made his point.

Verdict: He still dint sound veri romantic.

********

Kekeke.

2008-03-23T22:53:00.011+08:00

HAPPY

The past few days were AWESOME!!!

On Thursday, Baobao n I went VivoCity for dinner. Walked ard n Baobao accompanied me home and I helped Baobao put a facial mask! Keke.

Baobao looks like a lady. Quite scary actually. *Shivers*

On Friday, Baobao n I went cycling at East Coast Park! Hee. I wished I had taken the double bike n rode behind Baobao. Keke. The ride was fun. Baobao kept worrying bout me like a small kid, though my cycling skills are not bad at all. He kept saying dat I tried stunts and was afraid dat I might fall. It turned out, however, the only time I almost was when Baobao tried to grab my bike handle. Haha.

Me!

Spot the roundie!!

After cycling, Baobao n I went Parkway Parade for steamboat. The soup was so yummy! I wanna go back for more next wk. We sat down to haf ice-cream n had alot of fun discussing about the happenings in our surroundings.

On Saturday, Baobao n I went for a VideoEzy sale at Toa Payoh Safra. Hee. It was raining cats and dogs but we still went ahead. By the time we reached, we were drenched up to the knee level (my Birks are still not dry yet). Hee. While we were walking in the rain, Baobao said to me, "Xiaopang, sorry I dun haf a car - you haf to walk in the rain wif me." I m not sure why, but I feel dat what he said was veri sweet. Even if Baobao had a car, the person sitting in the car wif me is Baobao. Though he doesnt haf one now, the person walking under the umbrella wif me is still Baobao. To me, its the same thing. =)

I bought some VCDs for Baobao. We bought quite a number in case Baobao wanna bring them along to the States; he wld haf to bring originals. Baobao brought me to eat steamboat at Tiong Bahru coz I had craving for steamboat (again). Haha. I wanna haf steamboat everidae.

The first half of today was great. Went for photo-taking wif family and treated them to dim sum at Red Star Restaurant thereafter. The later half of the day was not as good; I was in the office working. There is a course on Tuesday and Wednesday, hence I hafta finish some of the work before dat. Urgh.

Gonna take the basic theory test tmr. Feeling kinda turned off by the idea of having to travel there.

I wish its another long wkend in the coming week!

The past few days were really great for me.

Thank you Baobao for taking care of me!

(",)

2008-03-17T21:56:00.010+08:00

I m blogging!

Havnt been doing serious blogging for a while. My thoughts are as messy as my table is. I m totally disorganised as at today.

There are a million and one things which I ought to have done but I have not been doing. Cant bear to write them out cuz I m feeling lots of guilt.

I found 4 of the same message in my Facebook inbox today. Content of which is a little weird and extremely late. It goes like this:

Hi Good Afternoon

Happy Valentines Day

Hope everything is goodI am hereby wrting to u to inviteyou for a dinner or lunch meeting

I can be very pleased to sent you flowers if u can provide me the address to courier it over.

I am 27, single , male, mix race,medium built, kind, jovial person, etc

I am keen to be friends with u

Kindly contact me 9xxxxxxx

Duhh. First of all, Valentines' Day was more than a month ago. Secondly, if you want to go ard using the same trick on different gals, at least care to modify the content to fit the circumstances. My profile picture shows me holding on to a bouquet of flowers, datz becoz my Baobao oredi had one couriered to my office. Therefore, I do not need any flowers from some stranger.

Besides, my Baobao is also 27, male, tall, dark, kind, jovial, witty and the list goes on. Kekeke.

(My Baobao is my fifty cents. Anyone cares to guess why?)

Okie so next Monday I gotta take my basic theory test for driving. I havnt started on it yet.

I m FINALLY gg to take my family photo this Sunday. Its LONG overdue. I was sort of waiting for my face to lose a lil of its roundness before I go take the photos. I guess the diarrhea I had post-BKK helped. Keke.

Photos dat shd haf been up a century ago:

The flowers r so FRESH!!
I was the first in my office to receive a bouquet. Reason being.. Baobao was one day early! Muahaha. He created quite a stir. My colleagues were all veri curious.

Sweet Valentines' Day 2008.

2008-03-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

Baobao complained dat I had not been blogging. N I still dun feel like blogging.

2008-02-28T22:38:00.001+08:00

I finally noe wat to gif Baobao when he embarks on his American dream! =)

2008-02-26T22:13:00.007+08:00

I haf been having the runs. It seems dat whatever I take in, sth else comes out soon after. Took half a day MC n came back to rest.

Baobao wld be gg to the States soon. Maybe I m not as xiao sa as I tot I wld be. Esp after the BKK trip, I realli feel veri she bu de. What wld I do when Baobao is in US? What did Baobao do when I was in US? Suddenly all these questions came to mind. A few weeks back, I was the one who encouraged him to go. At dat time, I realli felt if he dint go, I wldnt feel happy as I knew it wld always be a regret to him n dat it was the right thing to do. Now dat its realli drawing near, it appears dat I m not taking it as well as I wan myself to. Hmmm. I guess dat was how Baobao felt back den. Baobao had not once asked me not to go to US, though I was juz there to play. How cld I bring myself to ask him to stay becoz of me when he is gg there to work?

I guess I can onli divert my attention by saving up conscientiously n pay Baobao a visit in the States. It wld be such an experience. I was thinking to myself juz now, picturing the day Baobao came back from the States. I wld be standing at the arrival hall stretching my neck, n when Baobao comes out of the gate he wld see me n smile, like how I had when he came to pick me up when I was back.

Its not dat big a deal actualli. Last year Baobao n I spent like 4 mths apart. This time round, its like 2 mths more. Besides, I wld haf work to keep me busy. Peak draws nearer each day. Before long I wld be working six days a week, den seven eventually. Time shd pass pretty fast. As long as I dun think too much dat iz. Heez.

Baobao, wanna you noe dat I support you. Take care of urself over there yea? I wld take care of myself in SG. I shall teach you a few simple dishes b4 u go over. Den u can cook for urself over there. Maybe I can cook for ya if I do get to pay u a visit?

Meanwhile, I do haf to remind u dat since u r gg for so long, there r lots of things to pack! I can oredi picture us running ard getting things done at the last min. Keke. Like we always do. N at dat time I wld be pinching ur fats yea. So there.

U promised to buy me Coaches! Haha. Actualli, all I want is dat u take good care of urself. =)

It took me a while to decide whether I want to publish this post anot. I m afraid dat this wld bring some more worries n hesitation to Baobao after he reads it. But what the heck, the point is to overcome this challenge tgt. The two of us. I haf had enuf of struggling wif my inner feelings. I wld juz write them out n see how things go den. The most impt thing is Baobao noes I support him.

2008-02-25T21:27:00.017+08:00

ROU-MANTIC TRIP TO BANGKOK

(20 - 24 February 2008)

It was indeed a meaty trip, porky to be specific. For some reason, we kept eating pork. Haha.

Day 1

The trip began wif our flight delayed, with us realising it only when we were at the airport staring at the screen, wondering why the time shown was 2100 hrs instead of 1710 hrs. Baobao n I (Buidi's new nick) got into a conflict wif a man while we were in the line waiting for check-in. After a few rounds of mild crossfire, the man said to Baobao, "Are you trying to create trouble?" We replied, "If there was someone trying to create trouble, it wldnt be us." He dint speak after.

We finally boarded the plane a long time later.

Baobao n me on the plane

Baobao caught red-handed! We were taking a photo n yet his eyes still wandered off to look at the air stewardess!!! *Pinch*

Landed at 2200 hrs plus local time I think. Took a cab to the hotel. Was sorta cheated by the cab driver cuz he promised to go by meter but he switched off the meter halfway. As it was rather late at nite, we were juz glad dat we managed to reach the hotel safely, since neither Baobao nor I knew the exact location of the hotel. Besides, it was the price we saw on the forum n oso one which my colleague said he got, so all was fine.

Checked into the hotel n went for supper. Ate at this stall which I read on the forum. I m not sure if its the one I read but the stall satisfied the two distinct features I remembered - there's English translation on the menu and, it was under a building.

The stall

Pepsi bottle

The dishes we had

Dig in!

Day 2

Day 2 was a crazy one. We walked n walked, climbed n climbed.

Breakfast in the hotel

American breakfast

We started the day by walking to MBK. Changed some Thai baht and walked ard. Baobao bought three shorts.

Us outside MBK waiting for the mall to open.

Nearing lunch time, we took the train to Chitlom.

The system SG used to haf!

Had buffet at a Beijing restaurant in Hotel Intercontinental. Heez. Den we headed to Central Chidlom in the hope of getting some lingerie, but it turned out to be a fruitless trip.
As we came out of Central, we suddenly remembered dat we shd not haf left the building n shd haf gone straight to the train station through the linkway between the shopping centre n the station. Haha. So we went back into the shopping centre n searched for the linkway. When we finalli found it n went on it, we only walked for a few mins on the sheltered way leading to the train station b4 we realised dat we had to go down the stairs n walked by the road to get to where we wanted if we dint wan to take the train. Haha. Baobao n I had a big laugh. We felt so silly.

Walked over to Zen, Isetan, Big C, Siam Paragon, Siam Discovery Centre n checked out the Hard Rock Cafe too. Our last stop of the day was back at MBK. Had a quick dinner n a bowl of bird nest there b4 we headed back to the hotel.

Crepe at MBK!

Had foot massage at the parlour beside our hotel. Hees. Baobao fell asleep while doing the massage.

Day 3

We started Day 3 at MBK (again). We had Japanese food at Fuji Restaurant! Wow. The bento set Baobao ordered was overwhelming. The sashimi was sooooooo fresh! Dat was a realli realli good meal.

Us in the Fuji Restaurant

Bui's bento set

My ramen set

Headed to Platinum Mall thereafter n bought lots of stuff there. Heez. Had nice crepes there, as well as the Tom Yam Kung n Pad Thai which I had been craving for. Delicious meal!

ad crepe at Platinum Mall as well!

After dinner we walked over to Siam again n shopped ard the area. Reached the hotel pretty early dat nite. We dint realli like staying in the hotel dat much becoz there were onli two channels we understood - Star Movies n ESPN. Of coz, Baobao enjoyed watching soccer on ESPN.

Us at the mall near Zen

Day 4

Baobao n I had tummy upset earli in the morning n took turns gg to the washroom.

Despite the stomach upsets, we headed to Chatuchak Market nevertheless. Though I had to look for the washroom over there as well, I loved the place totally! Unlike Platinum Mall, I was able to get a good price even if I was buying onli one piece. I did most if not all of the bargaining becoz Baobao's bargaining power was not seasoned at all n the vendors dint realli gif in to guys it seemed. Baobao said they fell for my cuteness n gave me the discount. I was bargaining wif the vendor over Baobao's jeans n I wanted an additional 10 baht less. Haha. The vendor gave in. N yep, he was a guy. Haha.

Had the mini donuts at Chatuchak n they were realli yummy! Wasnt able to haf other food becoz we dint wan to take the risk of eating sth wrong again.

There were also lots of puppies at Chatuchak. Aint they adorable!

After Chatuchak, we went to MBK yet again to do some last min shopping over there. Baobao wanted to buy a backpack so dat we could store our victorious buys. Had teppanyaki for dinner n caught a movie after dat. Had my second bowl of bird nest too.

Day 5 (Last day)

Woke up earli to pack n had breakfast n checked out of the hotel. Left our luggage at the hotel n we headed for Platinum Mall. We ended up buying quite a few more things so we had to buy the "LV" bag to contain all the stuff we bought. Haha. It was a cute one wif Mickey Mouse prints on it.

We reached the airport too earli. Had Pad Thai n Tom Yam Kung again b4 boarding the plane. It was home sweet home two hours later.

Heading for home. =)

******

It was a thoroughly enjoyable trip wif Baobao. Mani funni things happened.

1) We dashed for the wrong train n ended up at the wrong station.

2) We tried to avoid walking the long way/taking the stairs but ended up taking a longer route/climbing more stairs aniwae.

3) Baobao was ferociously looking for the shop "Naraya" as he had read off the forum dat there were lots of stuff to buy from there. We finally found the shop after assistance from two security guards from Central. Baobao kept singing a tune dat goes "Na-ra-ya". Haha. He was ecstatic when he found the shop. He pondered for a long time over which bag to buy for his mum n sis. Haha. I was not at all excited bout gg to Naraya but it turned out dat Baobao was the one who cldnt wait to get out of the shop. Keke. It was becoz I kept throwing him wif options of which bag to buy until he got realli confused. Each time he decided on sth, I gave him another option. Guys juz cant handle such things I suppose. Muahaha.

4) Baobao "scolded" me for not buying enuff, while I ticked him off for wanting to buy stuff he dint realli need.

5) I tot my manicure was done n so I stood up n asked Baobao to help me pay. Den suddenly there was a commotion. Heez. The gal helping me wif my manicure cldnt speak English so she dint noe how to tell me dat the manicure wasnt done yet. Therefore she had to shout to another gal nearby who knew English, n so the whole shop ended up knowing bout wat happened. Even the gal who had been doing my manicure smiled; she had been pulling a long face. She had a fierce look but looked really pretty when she smiled. Okie, so Baobao harped on it for the rest of the night.

6) I bought a tie n cufflinks for Baobao n out of a sudden it dawned on me Baobao did not buy me or offer to buy me anithing. He was busy thinking of what to buy for his two other favourites. Keke. So I "confronted" him n he had this realli sheepish look on his face. ^_^

7) I said to Baobao, "Baobao, we haf been spending almost 24 hrs together the past few days." It was meant to be sweet. A simple sweet smile would haf been good too. However, my silly Baobao innocently replied, "Yea. Is there an issue?" I almost wanted to kick him off the escalator. Baobao had a good laugh at himself when he realised his tootness. Tsk tsk.

Heez. Thanks Baobao for taking such great care of me in BKK. I realli feel veri loved. Look forward to the next trip wif ya. Muacks.

2008-02-18T01:02:00.004+08:00

I started a blog n it made mi become a happier person. It was my own space where I write bout my feelings. When I got sick of letting my feelings in virtual space, I started longing to tell my feelings to an actual human being, one hu cld respond, empathise n understand.

Den one day sth hit mi so hard I started a diary. Those handwritten kind. In the middle of the nite I wld write, in my dimly lit room, afraid my parents wld wake up n find mi awake writing.

When I got hit, I realli felt I had no one. No space. No where dat belonged to me.

It just hurts me so much when I think to myself wat I haf done wrong. Its not the times when I can convince myself I m wrong dat hurt, it is those when I cant. The love I wish wld be showered on mi; maybe I shd haf realised a long time ago dat wldnt happen to mi. The truth is, I did realise it, n forced myself to come to terms wif it, but I guess I nv realli accepted it. Deep in my heart, I still long for dat love I once had. Or maybe I dint haf it b4 u noe, since obviously I was not right n shdnt haf done alot of things which I had.

So mani things. So mani times. Not once. Not once haf I heard a sincere apology.

Maybe things became better n I let things get above my head. Not dat I havnt learnt my lesson b4, its just sad dat I got to learn it again.

我说什么都是没有用的.

2008-02-11T21:58:00.001+08:00

Can someone tell me why is it that everithing I do is wrong?

Its during times like this which I really see my true circumstances.

Its not like I try n it works. For family, for love.

2008-02-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

I haf been thinking.

Did it not occur to u? If it did, wld u haf done it?

Wat's important? Wat's bobian?

Is it truly bobian?

U cldnt do it? Or u dint wan to?

2008-02-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

Love is...

Looking at him from afar and smiling to yourself;
Frowning at something he did but feeling sweet within;
Thinking for him and letting him be himself;
Finding him hard to ignore,
Cos he's someone thou can't do without.

2008-01-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

I think I shd be able to form a small pond wif the amount of tears I haf lately.

******

U noe, u cld nv feel how I haf felt. Even though u think u do. The subject matter mattered. The aftermath mattered even more. Maybe to u this has happened too mani times n this is just one of those times. If onli it is. I keep telling myself enough has been said. But I still say nevertheless.

It may not be dat good a thing if I realli can juz let this pass u noe.

2008-01-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

Havent been blogging.

I spent bout a week working my head off in the office n drowning in sadness. Den one day I decided to brace myself n abandon the sea I was in n move on to another ocean. Haha. A lil too imaginative n flowery description but, it is kinda reflective of how I feel. Well.

Yep, n so I went for Jay's concert n he's soooo cute! I realli realli love his voice. When he talks. His voice is juz different. *Infatuated* Despite this though, I felt the previous concert was a better one. Maybe his songs were more popular back then. He was a rather huge sensation.

Pics:

Bui n I bought subway b4 gg for the concert n we had to finish our food prior to entering the stadium. We saw the line getting longer n so we started to gobble our food. Haha.

The couple who gobbled their food:

Doesnt Bui look like a squirrel with his mouth full?

Inside the stadium. Preferred the stage from the previous one. It was in the middle so ppl sitting at all angles got a good view.

Check out the ang moh at Jay's concert. He was reading chinese news papers by the way.

The happy twosome.

Totally.

Dig-nose twosome.

N yea.... "We love the concert!!!" says

Buidi n...

Xiaopang!

Oredi waiting for the next one. Till den Jay.

******

There was the post-peak dinner at the No Signboard Seafood Restaurant last Friday. Food wasnt fantastic but the company was great. I had a great time wif my colleagues. We laughed n laughed. Lunch earlier in the day was great too. Bui got off earli from reservist n came to haf a long lunch wif mi. Friday was great.

Went cycling wif colleagues on Sat. GOSH. I m old. N freaking no stamina. Not dat I haf alot in the past but, I used to be able to cycle for hours n not feel tired. My legs were aching so much yesterday after the cycling!! It was ache actualli. I think there was too much acid in my legs or sth. Aniwaes, I felt ultra disgusted by myself. Miraculously, I dun feel anithing todae. Was expecting sore sore muscle ache.

Hee, after cycling some distance yest my legs started to feel tired. Afraid dat it was onli me, I juz kept quiet n continued to ride. My colleague came along n tol mi she was tired oredi. Apparently, everione was! Haha. Wat a relief. We office ladies need to do sth. The guys still seemed fine. Good for them.

Met up wif Bui after cycling to go collect the car model Bui had won b4 he went off for a wedding dinner. Went to Anchorpoint to shop n saw the God of Wealth n Bui took a pic wif him!

Huat ah!!!

Its Monday tmr. Boooo. Not looking forward to it becoz it doesnt feel veri post-peak rite now. Tons of work. Neverending work.

At least there r lotsa holidays coming up. Daddy's n grandpa's bdae. CNY. Valentine's Day. Usually m veri excited bout V Day but not so much now.

Oh, I m realli looking forward to this Sat!! Bui has booked us a couple spa! Datz realli sth new. Cant wait for it to come. =)

Jiayou Rissy.

2008-01-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

JAY'S CONCERT!!!

Gonna head for the concert soon. Whee! Took time off to come home n rest b4 gg.

*Excited*

2008-01-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAE MZ!!

Hope its gonna be a great year for u! Its gg to be a fantastic year for all of us.

Happy 2008!

Pandans ROCK.

2008-01-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

Great meetup wif the Pandans!!! As always.

The talk todae set mi thinking bout alot of things. Still thinking now. Lydia and MZ, I pei4 fu2 u both so much. Honestly. I dunno how to describe how I feel but I certainly do noe wat my next step shd be.

To Bui:
Buidi, sori. Wanna apologise for some things. Hee, like I said, I still do not think I m wrong for certain issues but I m certainly not entirely right. Sori nonetheless. Thanx for being such a nice boyfriend. Ur tootness angers mi at times, but at the end of the day, it is part of wat I love bout u.

I m looking forward to ur surprise for mi!!! =)

******

Met up wif Jun yesterdae. Finalli. Discussed loads bout our work. Haha. Finalli got Sis' Birks from her after so long. Hey gal, we shd meet up more often yea. Though u will be at Jurong Island all the way till March. Heez.

Love u gal!!! Lets work towards our first promotion n pay rise!

2008-01-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

I m sick. I think I caught a flu. Fever n stuff.

But no, I cant skip work. Becoz I haf courses on the next few days.

Todae I met wif a freak accident. Maybe it was due to my lack of concentration. I almost dropped a file n in the midst of saving it, I cut my finger n my finger in turn cut my eye lid. Thank goodness the cut on my eye lid was not serious; but my finger was not as lucky.

Its Mummy's birthday today. She wanted to stay home to watch TV so I bought some dim sum home from Lau Pau Sat after work. While buying the duck noodles, the guy at the stall told mi, "I havnt seen u before. Dint realise u r so pretty. From the way u talk I noe u can sing well, maybe we can go to KTV tgt some day." I would haf appreciated his nice compliment except dat, juz two weeks back I was there buying noodles from him, n he talked to me about some other stuff. Juz becoz I wore specs then hence he cldnt recognise mi? Haha. Not dat I care. Its juz a lil turn off.

I think I better pop a pill before I slp later.

2008-01-05T01:56:00.000+08:00

I went to register for basic theory test yesterdae. Finally. Its been too long. I m getting started at last!!

Buidi's surprise did not work out yest, so he went ahead wif his backup plan instead. So we went to register for my test den went for dinner at Seah Im Food Centre (Bui had a craving for hawker food). While at the driving centre, I encouraged Bui to haf Lor Mee but he wanted to haf Mee Soto. The Mee Soto turned out less than average so Bui was staring at the Lor Mee which the person sitting opposite us was having. Keke.

We headed for "Songs of the Sea" at Sentosa after dinner. My first time taking the new monorail into the island. Heez.

Candid shot of Bui at the monorail station. Haha.

The monorail.

The inside of the monorail.

Can anione spot the veg stuck on my tooth??? Muahahahahahahaha.

I think I m super lazy. I knew there was a veg on my tooth but I juz dint wan to get it out. It was onli after I took the photo dat I asked Bui whether there was sth on my tooth. Haha. His reply was, "Realli got leh!" We had a gd laugh.

Heez. We bought tickets for the show den took a stroll along the beach. We also checked out the Siloso Beach Resort. Wow, it looks so posh n relaxing inside! Realli realli wanna spend a nite or two there. While we were finding our way to the reception, we saw some peacocks n peahens in the.. CARPARK! We figured the animals were seeking shelter there. They even blocked the way n prevented a BMW from getting out of the carpark.

The peacocks. Haha.

Me in the dark.

This iz my Christmas pressie from Buidi!

Juz in time to replace my oredi-run-out moisturiser.

Great day! N.. It was a Friday!!!

2008-01-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

It feels good to be gg out for lunch again.

It feels good not to be in the office 16/7.

It feels good to leave office at 7.

It feels GREAT dat I m on leave tmr! Again!

Pudding Bui iz gg to be on leave tmr too. He says he has sth planned for mi. Heez. N he's acting all secretive. I wonder wat iz up his sleeve. Heez.
*Looking forward to tmr*

Post-peak iznt quite as post as I tot it wld be, or rather, as I hoped it wld be. Well, at least I dun haf to stay till so late in the office. Hmmm, gotta go bac to office thiz wkend; needa do some tax vetting stuff. Despite being post-peak, I still haf lots of deadlines to meet. One of which iz 15 Jan. I haf like 4 cases due on dat day. Haha. I m so looking forward to it.

My mum made soya bean milk todae. It tastes exactly like the kind I love. The kind which you can buy from the market. YumZzz.

Havnt had a home-cooked meal in weeks. Food tastes the best at home. Soup n everithing.

Woooo. I wish the rest wld nv end.

2008-01-01T16:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2008 iz here! Its gonna be awesome!!

Looking bac at 2007, it was realli an eventful year. It was a good year.

On the first day of 2008, I officially note certain points.

1) I finally lost some weight. Gained quite a few pounds since I was back from the States but the peak managed to do some of the work for mi.

2) I tided through my first peak in my career yesterday. I was awfully glad dat I managed to attain 100% completion n submission rate! Though dat 100% nearly slipped away, it iz a good thing dat I managed to save it!

3) Pudding Bui n I r gg for our second Jay Chou's concert in 18 days time.

4) Pudding n I r heading for Bangkok in February! Finally some time alone wif Bui.

5) I had an awesome Christmas eve at the chalet wif Bui n his family, followed by the worst Christmas Day of my life working in the office. I played mahjong the nite b4, slept at 5 n headed back to the office at 10 plus. Sobz!

6) The meet-up wif the Pandans for Christmas gift exchange was soooooo much FUN! I will always rem Shuang being insecure about her gift. Muahaha.

7) I dint get any gift for Bui for Christmas. I realli dunno wat I can get. Bui doesnt wan anithing at all. He tol mi to accumulate the credit so dat he can redeem it once he noes wat he wans.

SOooooo tired. Veri veri glad dat I finally haf the chance to rest now.

I need to catch up on so mani things.

2007-12-22T01:53:00.000+08:00

Another day past midnight in the office.

I think I need to drink even more water than I m drinking now, becoz I haf an ultra big ulcer in my mouth. Sad.

Late nights gif mi cravings. Tired n hungry but haf nothing to eat in the office.

Alrite enuf whining. I shall go back to office on Sunday instead of tmr cuz I wanna spend more time wif Bui. Besides, I manage to noe which managers wld be in office tmr so I better siam4! Haha.

Good nite world.

2007-12-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

I wish for more time walking ard shopping malls wif Bui!

Bui completed his task of buyin gifts for his various gift exchanges. I dint buy ani. Oops. Dat means I m left wif Sat to buy! Oh no!

I wan more time!!!

2007-12-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

19 December 2007

This is a historic day of my life.

I worked like an auditor todae. 1 plus in the morning was the time I left the office. Yet there were still ppl ard. Sad.

I can now officially look forward to a trip to Bangkok! I booked the tickets juz now since there was this Tiger Airways promotion. So yup I m gg to Bangkok in February 2008!

The late hours everidae iz taking a toll on my health. N the fact dat I m not one hu will bathe n rest straightaway after returning home late from work. I need to relax n do my own stuff for a lil while first, no matter how late I m. I probably will be more awake the next day if I do slp earli, but I wld be worse off mentally. Cuz I wld feel like the words "NO LIFE" r sticking on my forehead!

DND iz next wk. Even the mere mention of the word iz bare minimal in the office. The most frequent words used ard the office recently shd be "by todae" n "deadline".

I realise I m a person wif lil or no self-control when it comes to things like slping earli when I ought to n stop eating when I m full. Most of the time I dun realise I m full until I stop eating, which by den I haf oredi eaten too much. N I cld actualli continue. I feel so dumb.

Off to bed. After doing nothing much for an hour plus. Haha. I've got a life?

To Jun:
Sori to haf cancelled on u todae gal! My apologies. U noe, the words "deadling" n "by todae" rule my life these days. My bf has to step aside too. Haha. But I miss u so much u noe. Lets meet up soon. Mani hugs!

2007-12-14T23:47:00.000+08:00

#MALACCA#
1 - 2 December 2007

I worked my head off for the week before (more than 15 hours each day!) juz to savour my sweet wkend!

N so it begun...

DAY ONE

Buidi doing last min packing. (As usual)

Off we go on the bus!

Stopped by a lil hawker centre for breakfast. We ate like crazy. I love roadside stalls!!

Ko lo mee? Cant rem how to spell the name.

Chee cheong fan wif far too sweet sauce.

VERI BIG pau.

We vistited a bee farm. The bees r acualli pretty frenly unless they r disturbed.

Mi n Bui's cousins

Mi chatting away wif Bui's cousin. Again YQ, I m friendly n sociable.

Thiz iz good. Becoz it aint a pose; it was a candid shot. I was juz bout to turn ard wif my hand on my stomach. Datz all. Haha.

Buidi n mi

The boys. Bui n bro n cousins.

The gals. Mi n Bui's cousins.

Huge fishballs!

Some serious discussion gg on. Hmmmm.

Checked into the hotel in the afternoon. Bui's cousin, Justina, share a room wif mi. Heez. She iz the same age as I m so we hit it off realli well! Left the baggage there n went off to explore!

The pool. Not veri majestic but it was fine.

Thiz iz such a retro pose.

Bui's mum n cousins n mi.

Qing Wen, Bui's mum, Bui, mi.

Candid shot. Love it though I look totalli unglam. Haha. Wonder wat Bui was doing.

Shopping at the night market. Heez, Justina n I had a great time. The boys (Bui n bro) were our bodyguards for the night, in fact throughout the whole trip. Haha. It was fun! Justina n I were choosing keychains. We bought identical ones! Poor Bui looked kinda bored standing behind us. Cuz he was having a running nose. Poor Bui.

Day One ended wif a round of KTV at the hotel. Had fun singing! Finalli got to sing KTV.

DAY TWO

Veri bright us! We were taking pics in another hotel which was alot more classy.

Pics at hotel b4 checking out:

Qing Wen, cousins n mi.

Bui n Thaddeus (hu oso iz his tutee)

Bui n mi!

Love thiz shot. Not sure why.

The two days zoomed past. I left Malacca wif lots of foodies. Mainly for family but I had a box of tau sar pia specially for myself. Not those kinda wif preservatives n nicely wrapped ones. I bought it from a veri traditional shop! ^_^

Had dinner back in Singapore on Sunday evening. Dinner was at a coffee shop at Pasir Ris, n I had the best fried mee hoon (zi char ones) n steamed crab! OMG. Juz toking bout it makes mi wanna eat it again. LOVE IT.

Last trip b4 the end of 2007. Thanx Bui!

2007-12-06T00:28:00.001+08:00

There will never be a good time to tok bout things which one does not even wan to hear iz there?

So does it matter when the topic iz started? When two ppl r chatting happily or when in a quarrel. Does it make a diff?

2007-12-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

I m sooooooooooooooooooooo glad I went to meet up wif the Pandans juz now, even though it was less than an hour.

Its always GREAT to meet up wif the gals. I wish it dint haf to end.

Dat was the onli time I felt relaxed throughout the whole day.

I miss u gals u noe!!!

I m still sore I dint manage to make it for the KTV session becoz I was tied down at work. Wat a big BOOOoooo.

Will 31 December come more quickly?

2007-11-29T13:18:00.001+08:00

I haf been working for more than 14 hours each day. I m so shagged. The production meetings held dint help. All the targets n stuff. Blahh.

Juz bought some chocs to destress but I realised dat onli added on to my oredi boiling heatiness. I need more...

Time
Sleep
Rest
Leisure

Letz juz say peak period iz erm, peak. I underestimated its prowess earlier on, BUT I m so NOT gg to let it take mi down! Nor let it stop mi from taking leave for the more immediate. But sheesh, I think I m so not gg to succeed for the latter.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Hate to read the news lately. So mani sad happenings. N everione seems to be blogging bout it. It downs my heart.

2007-11-28T18:35:00.000+08:00

I wan to go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pandan Jing, I wanna eat dat gourmet ice-cream. Muahaha.

2007-11-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

Working n battling hard for a fabulous weekend ahead. Plus KTV next week.

*Gambatte*

2007-11-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

FONDUE'S DAY 2007

Its 3 years!!! *Shouts* N more ahead.

Buidi brought mi to Giraffe todae. Had been wanting to try out dat place for a while. Turned out to be rather disappointing to the both of us. But well, the food was not bad. Its the human factor which pulled the whole thing down.

Mr Bui

Ms Fei

My dinner

Bui's dinner

Went for desserts thereafter. As usual.

My warm bread pudding.

I m realli looking forward to this wkend. Heez. Its like a Fondue's Day celebration for Bui n I, though its gg to be mi n Bui, n his entire family n extended family. Keke. But the thing iz, I m gg to haf alot of fun becoz I get along wif Bui's cousins realli well. (To YQ if u r reading thiz: I m sociable n friendly ok?) Heez.

Bui says he iz looking forward to the wkend too. Haha. Its juz a two-day-one-night thingy but Bui wanna bring his big haversack there. Keke. As usual, our opinions clash. Its rather hard to find sth we can both agree upon in terms of nitty gritty details like thiz. But datz the fun of it.

I m gonna end thiz entry wif sth I havnt done in a long while, uploading Bui's pics! (Despite him telling mi not to.)

I dunno but I feel dat thiz pose looks kinda like Takuya Kimura. I dint noe Bui had it in him. I seem to haf seen a pic of Takuya in thiz pose b4.

Bui iz "pissed" dat I put his fringe all down.

Bui iz wearing his hair as a cap!

Thiz iz sooooooo RETRO. But cute.

With the few mins left of todae, to you Bui:

HAPPY FONDUE'S DAY.

I love the cups n card u gave me. Sorry I dint haf ani gifts for u todae. Will make it up to u. Promise. ^_^

2007-11-25T19:46:00.000+08:00

I worked 7 days this wk.

I m working extra hard this wk so dat I can reap wat I haf sowed in the coming week ahead. First up, I haf to leave office earli tmr for Fondue's Day dinner wif Bui. Next up iz the Malacca trip during the wkend wif Bui n his family. Heez. Am looking forward to it alot. But first, I gotta clear the week first!

So tired tired. Heez. My mood is getting all festive oredi.

2007-11-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

Fondue's Day is coming!

My third year wif Bui. No, actualli a mth bac it was 3 years oredi? Oh well. Bui n I dun haf an exact date for our anniversary. We onli haf Fondue's Day becoz we happened to eat Fondue on 26 October three years ago. Nonetheless, I m veri looking forward to it!

Wat pressie shd I get???

Anione hu has a fabulous idea, please lemme noe. ;)

Stuck at work. I wanna go home! Poof.

2007-11-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

Felt rotten todae. Decided to take an impromptu half day off n went off to relax. Went for a facial n ended up spending way more than I shd - more than half my salary iz gone wif juz one signature. BAH.

I hope tmr will be better than todae. Actualli todae was not dat bad. I had a lot of time to relax. I suddenli realised dat I may not be as busy as I think I would be during the month of December. Turned out I got a rather clean portfolio, i.e. theres not much sickening bits n pieces for mi to pick up. I m kinda worried for next year though, as I haf gotten a few big cases. Definitely looking forward to it, cuz it means a fantastic chance to learn lots next year when I start on the cases. Before dat though, I haf to keep in mind the fact dat I m actualli still mid-way thru some veri big cases, cases which definitely cld not be completed by Nov.

Am toying wif the idea of taking a long wkend break come this Christmas. Dat iz if I m able to complete my portfolio by then. If I manage to, I would be realli thrilled cuz I would be one of the veri few among my colleagues to be enjoying myself during dat period of time.

DND iz on 29 December 2007. Wonder if mani of my colleagues r even gg. It wldnt be fun if veri few ppl r attending.

I havnt been blogging lately. Obviously. R my moods unstable becoz I havnt been blogging n hence not sorting out my thoughts? Or iz it dat I feel down thus I dint blog? Or iz it dat I no longer wan to jot my thoughts down on a non-physical medium n am secretly wishing in my heart dat I can tell everithing to a physical being? By dat I mean human being.

Was it juz last week when I was super busy? I wld rather work be dat way. At least I wldnt haf as much time or energy to be angry or disappointed or feel watever emotions abt anithing.

I need a retreat.

2007-10-31T22:09:00.000+08:00

Today's a good day

Obvious from the heading, I had a pretty good day despite bringing a swollen right eye to work. Sobz.

For those of u hu noe, my right eye is pretty much out of shape now. Hafta stay out of contact lenses for a while, n so I went to work wif my specs todae. Do I look veri different? Maybe. Becoz some of my colleagues cldnt recognise mi. =X

The reason which made mi happi todae though was not becoz I enjoyed being the centre of attraction wif everione asking mi y I wore specs todae but becoz I met a client for the first time! It was so impromptu. The client was here for the auditors n so he brought along the document I had sent to him as well. Kinda got a shock when the reception said a gentleman was here to see mi. For a moment, I tot Bui had come wif a bouquet of flowers. Muahaha. Aniwaes, so the client was realli nice n he gave mi his name card but being my first time mtg a client, I went without bringing my name card. So embarrassing. Had a brief chat wif him b4 I headed bac to office n decided dat I shd bring him one of my name card. So dat marks my first encounter wif a client. First 'breakthrough' in my job. =)

Eye was painful so came bac earli. Reached home at 7 n took a nap immediately cuz I was wiped out. Woke up at 8, took a bath n had dinner. Good soup n dishes plus fave TV programme at the stipulated 9 pm iz always enjoyable. Datz y I like coming home earli. Juz too bad I dun get alot of such chances.

To all my frens hu r having exams: Work hard n lets play hard tgt after all the papers! Hang in there!!

2007-10-28T20:27:00.001+08:00

I m so dumb. I brought work home to do but I did not rem to put in the correct file into my thumbdrive. This sux totalli.

The past week was busy. Wats new. Met up wif Team PooH gals n had a great time. Sat by the river n chatted - how relaxing dat was. Complained to one another bout our work, two auditors vs one tax agent. Haha. After hearing the nature of work from the gals, I m even more convinced dat I m not suitable for audit. I guess I made the right decision. While I told Jun veri few ppl realli knew wat they wanted to do, she said, "Maybe like u, u realli wan to do tax juz dat u die die dun wan to admit it." Haha. I laughed upon hearing dat. Maybe its true.

Went to Timbre wif the Pandan gals. Was it last last Fri? I dun realli rem. Time seems to pass so quickly, it zooms in fact. I m eagerly looking forward, excited to noe wat will happen in my life next, but at the same time traumatised how time flies. But aniwae, the theme for dat nite was stripes! Haha. Shuwen even bought a new top for the nite, since she cant realli afford not obeying the theme animore or else she wld haf to bring a guy to our next outing! Haha. So here r some pics which caught the veri unglam side of mi, not dat I care, but yea, I find the pics funny somehow.

We were trying to act gracious while looking at the menu.

Thru thiz pic I realise n finalli understand. I do look dao when I dun smile. In thiz pic, I wasnt pissed or anithing, I juz wasnt smiling n deciding which piece of chicken I wanted. Maybe I shd make a conscious effort to rem to smile.

Ok I look realli greedy in this pic. Haha, n Jing seems to be sticking the fork up her nose.

Unglam!!!

Shuang looks realli funni in thiz pic. Keke.

Xian2 shu2 Lydia cutting the pizza. She juz has the xian2 qi1 liang2 mu3 look. =)

Of late, Bui has been harping on how I shd spend more on mani- and pedicure, accessories, handbags etc. He xian2 qi4 mi!!! Hahaha. No lar, Bui doesnt mean dat. He juz wanna me teng2 myself. But the thing is, I guess I m realli a lazy gal. I find bathing a chore, the three steps a day iz a chore too, n erm, sigh I havnt trimmed my brows b4. Muahahaha, I noe. Some of u may haf exclamation marks on ur head when u read this, but yea, datz mi. Maintenance iz not realli on my dictionary, though I realli nd it to be now. Ohh, watever.

The next thing I m looking forward to iz 8 Nov, cuz its a public holiday. Juz as I tot it iz thiz coming Thurs, I checked the calendar n realised dat itz next Thurs. Alrite, one more wk of stretching my neck den. In any case, I haf taken 9 Nov off a long time ago. Was supposed to go to Bangkok wif Bui dat wkend, but due to mani unexpected circumstances, the trip iz postponed indefinitely. We got down to booking the tics one day too late - the price rose like crazy. Jan 2008 sounded realli good except dat I haf training at the beginning of the month n Bui has two weeks reservist in the middle, n his fren iz getting married earli Feb, so therez no available wkend to go. Hmm.

Sooooo tired, though I slept more than 10 hrs for the past two days each.

Here comes a new week, which oso means I m one week nearer to 31 December 2007. Jiayou Iris! Come 1 Jan 2008, I can officially take a good break!

Ellie ellie phoo phoo.

2007-10-26T08:54:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?