I guess its been too long I last penned my thoughts that I m losing focus.
Need a break. Want something different. Get things done.
I guess the disappointment is great becoz I actually did sth for it, but I think its primarily becoz I really thought it was gg to happen.
Jus the day before it was gg to happen, I realised it nv wld. Its not about the fact that I am the only one feeling the disappointment, and that you are feeling it too. It was becoz it was so near, and then it vanished, jus like that. Perhaps I could haf caught hold of it. Could I really haf? I doubt so.
When is it really gg to happen? This year-end? Why do I feel like I m lying to myself?
I feel down each time I recollect the images I had formed in my mind. I had already thought of what I want to wear, which pair of shades I want to bring, the sundresses and hat I want to buy jus for the trip. And I still don't get why I got shouted at the other day. I certainly didnt cause the whole drama.
Probably the stress at work is getting too much. If I dont get a holiday soon, I am afraid the stress, anger and disappointment is gg to eat me alive.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
