Visited one of my managers' place today. The place was beautiful. It was featured in one of the magazines! It certainly brought me some fantasy as to what I can do with my future home. So many ideas out of a sudden.
Went for Baobao's family bbq after. It was fun. Nice talking to Baobao's cousins.
Tired. Need more rest. Shall head to town tmr to get what I have been wanting to get.
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While I was on the train just now, there was this lady in front of me. She took out her iPod n I cant help but notice the lovely pouch. N I thought, I dun think I wld ever buy an iPod of my own. When was the last time I bought sth which I really like for myself? Last year in the States. I bought the Guess watch for my bdae. When was the last time I did sth really nice for myself? It never happened before becoz I wldnt make the effort to.
This is probably why I cant help but have hope when I put in alot of effort to do sth for someone. Hope that my efforts will be reciprocated. Hope that my efforts will be appreciated. But what happens when the amount of appreciation I receive is a far cry from the amount of effort I have put in. What if I m told I dint have to do that at all?
I hate that statement becoz it simply puts everything I have done down the drain. N also becoz, that is an unfair statement.
The word "effort" just brings back bad memories.
I secretly regret rejecting to go up the Singapore Flyer. Whenever I think of it, I always go "Damn". Is it what they call once you pass the chance you may never get it again? True indeed. Damn.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
