And so Baobao boarded the plane to Houston this morning. It was a hasty departure, as the boarding gate was closing so Baobao had to rush. No tears for me. Not even when Baobao n I were on opposite sides of the glass n I watched him go through the customs.
However, as Baobao turned back n waved, tears welled. I guess the truth finally set in. No amount of packing n preparation felt more real. I suddenly realised dat Baobao was really leaving for the States.
I dint wave back, becoz I dint want to.
The moment Baobao disappeared from behind the pillar marked the moment dat I was not gg to see Baobao again until 6 mths later. The scene was all so familiar. A year ago, I was the one setting off. I rem wanting to give Baobao a hug before I went in the gate, n he rejected cuz my parents were present n he was embarrassed. A long time later after I was back, he asked why I went in the gate so abruptly. Hmmmm.
Today was certainly abrupt. But dat may not be a bad thing at all. At least there wasnt time for emotions to be cultivated. N for dat matter, tears. As Baobao waved n disappeared from sight, I turned ard n saw Baobao's dad. My eyes were watery n he looked me in the eye. I m not sure if Baobao's dad saw my tears. I think I did hold my tears back pretty well.
There was a moment when I was standing alone. If I was all alone, I would have cried out. Thank goodness there were so many ppl there. Phew. Was at the airport sending Baobao off when he went to Taiwan for reservist last year. The feeling was not at all the same.
Baobao should be on the plane now, watching movies or playing his PSP. Or eating. Hee. Baobao loves to nua n I m glad he has the chance to do so on the plane. Though it would be really dry for the throat n skin.
N so the 6 mths start. For weeks n even mths I have been dreading n looking forward to this. Dreading, becoz Baobao wld be half the globe away. Looking forward, becoz once the 6 mths start ticking, I am nearer to seeing Baobao again with each minute dat passes. =)
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I have calculated. Twelve timesheets is all it will take. By the time I submit my 12th timesheet from now. I wld be seeing Baobao again. Cheers.
Decided on using 12 timesheets instead of 6 mths or 24 weeks or 180 days.
6 mths is out becoz one mth sounds long to get by.
24 weeks becoz "24" seems like a large number out of a sudden.
180 days obviously is out becoz I wld have to mark a cross on my calendar 180 times. Dat wld take too long.
12 timesheets is good becoz a week will sneak past not dat slowly, n before I know it I wld be repeating the process of doing up my timesheet. There, two weeks wld have passed. =)
I know I m being silly becoz they are essentially all the same period of time. Who cares. As long as it seems shorter to me.
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Baobao, do rem to apply the lip balm when necessary k? Drink more water. Haha. I m still saying this though by the time you see this, you wld have alighted the plane. But well. I am missing you obviously. You take care of yourself k? You gotta take care of me when you are back. Lets both jiayou together k? For work, for us. Muacks.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
