I used to say it ever so often but I haf never given any serious thought to it.
What just happened made me realise, I should.
Upon deeper thinking, things start to fall into perspective and I m no longer sure if what I haf been feeling is right.
Its often easy for one to close one eye to things which one does not see. The challenge then is to be able to turn away from things which you haf already seen.
Well, for me, I know very well which category I fall into. Lets just say I am bad at pretence, or some may say, I am just being zuan1 niu2 jiao3 jian1.
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Regrets... Its the worst feeling one can ever have. At least in my humble opinion.
Perhaps its becoz I haf far too many regrets in my life. Through my falls I learn to not repeat the same mistake. Try as I may, I still fo through the same falls. Why?
Sometimes I guess it does not mmatter how much in your heart you want to do something for someone, what really is important is how much that person wants you to do. I wld say, its got both good and bad. Even if you haf done a million, it doesnt make a difference if the other party only wanted you to do a hundred in the first place.
I am trying my best. I am putting in my best. IF anyone knows what I have been doing lately, tghat person would call me a fool. Although, if the roles were reversed, I wouldnt call that person a fool.
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I should stay focused. Promotion list is gonna be out next week. Remember my dream, work towards it. I never wanna fail myself again.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
