Enough's said. Its a shame you cant share wat is of good news to me.
6/18/2008 12:13:00 PM
Monday, June 16, 2008
I miss walking ard Takashimaya basement wif Baobao looking for food. Boooo.
6/16/2008 08:28:00 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Happy Father's Day
Today was a lazy day for the Lee family. We played mahjong from 1 till 6 pm, went for dinner downstairs n returned home n continued with the second round. Haha.
Yesh, today is Father's Day. However, it turned out that Daddy n Mummy lost over a hundred dollars to Sis n me. Muahaha. They werent having the best of luck I guess.. Heez.
Good day it was.
*Smiles*
6/15/2008 11:32:00 PM
Visited one of my managers' place today. The place was beautiful. It was featured in one of the magazines! It certainly brought me some fantasy as to what I can do with my future home. So many ideas out of a sudden.
Went for Baobao's family bbq after. It was fun. Nice talking to Baobao's cousins.
Tired. Need more rest. Shall head to town tmr to get what I have been wanting to get.
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While I was on the train just now, there was this lady in front of me. She took out her iPod n I cant help but notice the lovely pouch. N I thought, I dun think I wld ever buy an iPod of my own. When was the last time I bought sth which I really like for myself? Last year in the States. I bought the Guess watch for my bdae. When was the last time I did sth really nice for myself? It never happened before becoz I wldnt make the effort to.
This is probably why I cant help but have hope when I put in alot of effort to do sth for someone. Hope that my efforts will be reciprocated. Hope that my efforts will be appreciated. But what happens when the amount of appreciation I receive is a far cry from the amount of effort I have put in. What if I m told I dint have to do that at all?
I hate that statement becoz it simply puts everything I have done down the drain. N also becoz, that is an unfair statement.
The word "effort" just brings back bad memories.
I secretly regret rejecting to go up the Singapore Flyer. Whenever I think of it, I always go "Damn". Is it what they call once you pass the chance you may never get it again? True indeed. Damn.
6/15/2008 01:03:00 AM
Friday, June 13, 2008
TGIF First Friday without Baobao in SG. Last Friday I went wif Baobao to temples n did last minute shopping before helping him to pack his luggage. Wow dat feels so long ago.
Baobao brought me to Secret Garden last Tuesday. It feels like ages ago too. I had a fun night. After the expensive dinner we went to chill out at Mr Bean before heading home. Ohhh, speaking of which I am missing Baobao sitting by my side, ordering my fave dessert for me, holding my hand, saying sweet things to me, n even making me angry.
Secret Garden:
Work has been rough. I havnt been able to rebound from my holiday mood since the trip to HK n the many four-days weeks I have been enjoying. Five working days suddenly seem too much. In the past, I dint really treat Friday as a working day as I noe I wld leave office early n meet Baobao. Today, it took forever for 5.30 to come.
Chilled out with my colleagues at Jazz Bar after work to celebrate our promotion. Gossiped n complained - we actually spent more than 5 hours talking. Splendid. We went to Ricciotti for desserts. I brought them there for the half price cakes but it turned out that the deal was no longer applicable for dine-in. Booo. I had gelato in the end. I order pistachio and passion fruit ice-cream with caramel sauce. Had thought that the passion fruit flavour wld be sweet, but it turned out to be uber sour. So sour that the caramel sauce was tasteless in comparison. I left that scoop untouched.
Weekend suddenly does not feel so exciting. Nonetheless, I appreciate the time to rest.
Baobao Baobao, dun be notti in the States. Keep that Haagen Daz -eating in check. You do not want to waste your effort gg to the gym. Take care, eat well, drink more water n pay for my airfare! Haha. Jiayou k? I support ya.
6/13/2008 11:54:00 PM
Sunday, June 08, 2008
SAFE Baobao landed safely in the States n is on his way to his apartment. I hope his apartment is the same as in the picture on the website. Cuz its gorgeous.
Yes, Baobao is gonna live in a place like a serviced apartment for six mths. As per the website, the facilities n deco etc are GORGEOUS. There's a gym, pool, n more. He's got a car too.
I m envious. I wanna be there too.
Okie, I wanna be there becoz Baobao is there.
6/08/2008 11:57:00 AM
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Yippeee!
Baobao just called home. He is now in Moscow for transit.
=)
6/07/2008 09:08:00 PM
TODAY
And so Baobao boarded the plane to Houston this morning. It was a hasty departure, as the boarding gate was closing so Baobao had to rush. No tears for me. Not even when Baobao n I were on opposite sides of the glass n I watched him go through the customs.
However, as Baobao turned back n waved, tears welled. I guess the truth finally set in. No amount of packing n preparation felt more real. I suddenly realised dat Baobao was really leaving for the States.
I dint wave back, becoz I dint want to.
The moment Baobao disappeared from behind the pillar marked the moment dat I was not gg to see Baobao again until 6 mths later. The scene was all so familiar. A year ago, I was the one setting off. I rem wanting to give Baobao a hug before I went in the gate, n he rejected cuz my parents were present n he was embarrassed. A long time later after I was back, he asked why I went in the gate so abruptly. Hmmmm.
Today was certainly abrupt. But dat may not be a bad thing at all. At least there wasnt time for emotions to be cultivated. N for dat matter, tears. As Baobao waved n disappeared from sight, I turned ard n saw Baobao's dad. My eyes were watery n he looked me in the eye. I m not sure if Baobao's dad saw my tears. I think I did hold my tears back pretty well.
There was a moment when I was standing alone. If I was all alone, I would have cried out. Thank goodness there were so many ppl there. Phew. Was at the airport sending Baobao off when he went to Taiwan for reservist last year. The feeling was not at all the same.
Baobao should be on the plane now, watching movies or playing his PSP. Or eating. Hee. Baobao loves to nua n I m glad he has the chance to do so on the plane. Though it would be really dry for the throat n skin.
N so the 6 mths start. For weeks n even mths I have been dreading n looking forward to this. Dreading, becoz Baobao wld be half the globe away. Looking forward, becoz once the 6 mths start ticking, I am nearer to seeing Baobao again with each minute dat passes. =)
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I have calculated. Twelve timesheets is all it will take. By the time I submit my 12th timesheet from now. I wld be seeing Baobao again. Cheers.
Decided on using 12 timesheets instead of 6 mths or 24 weeks or 180 days.
6 mths is out becoz one mth sounds long to get by.
24 weeks becoz "24" seems like a large number out of a sudden.
180 days obviously is out becoz I wld have to mark a cross on my calendar 180 times. Dat wld take too long.
12 timesheets is good becoz a week will sneak past not dat slowly, n before I know it I wld be repeating the process of doing up my timesheet. There, two weeks wld have passed. =)
I know I m being silly becoz they are essentially all the same period of time. Who cares. As long as it seems shorter to me.
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Baobao, do rem to apply the lip balm when necessary k? Drink more water. Haha. I m still saying this though by the time you see this, you wld have alighted the plane. But well. I am missing you obviously. You take care of yourself k? You gotta take care of me when you are back. Lets both jiayou together k? For work, for us. Muacks.
6/07/2008 01:51:00 PM
Friday, June 06, 2008
Something dawned on me.
I used to say it ever so often but I haf never given any serious thought to it.
What just happened made me realise, I should.
Upon deeper thinking, things start to fall into perspective and I m no longer sure if what I haf been feeling is right.
Its often easy for one to close one eye to things which one does not see. The challenge then is to be able to turn away from things which you haf already seen.
Well, for me, I know very well which category I fall into. Lets just say I am bad at pretence, or some may say, I am just being zuan1 niu2 jiao3 jian1.
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Regrets... Its the worst feeling one can ever have. At least in my humble opinion.
Perhaps its becoz I haf far too many regrets in my life. Through my falls I learn to not repeat the same mistake. Try as I may, I still fo through the same falls. Why?
Sometimes I guess it does not mmatter how much in your heart you want to do something for someone, what really is important is how much that person wants you to do. I wld say, its got both good and bad. Even if you haf done a million, it doesnt make a difference if the other party only wanted you to do a hundred in the first place.
I am trying my best. I am putting in my best. IF anyone knows what I have been doing lately, tghat person would call me a fool. Although, if the roles were reversed, I wouldnt call that person a fool.
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I should stay focused. Promotion list is gonna be out next week. Remember my dream, work towards it. I never wanna fail myself again.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
