I haf been having the runs. It seems dat whatever I take in, sth else comes out soon after. Took half a day MC n came back to rest.
Baobao wld be gg to the States soon. Maybe I m not as xiao sa as I tot I wld be. Esp after the BKK trip, I realli feel veri she bu de. What wld I do when Baobao is in US? What did Baobao do when I was in US? Suddenly all these questions came to mind. A few weeks back, I was the one who encouraged him to go. At dat time, I realli felt if he dint go, I wldnt feel happy as I knew it wld always be a regret to him n dat it was the right thing to do. Now dat its realli drawing near, it appears dat I m not taking it as well as I wan myself to. Hmmm. I guess dat was how Baobao felt back den. Baobao had not once asked me not to go to US, though I was juz there to play. How cld I bring myself to ask him to stay becoz of me when he is gg there to work?
I guess I can onli divert my attention by saving up conscientiously n pay Baobao a visit in the States. It wld be such an experience. I was thinking to myself juz now, picturing the day Baobao came back from the States. I wld be standing at the arrival hall stretching my neck, n when Baobao comes out of the gate he wld see me n smile, like how I had when he came to pick me up when I was back.
Its not dat big a deal actualli. Last year Baobao n I spent like 4 mths apart. This time round, its like 2 mths more. Besides, I wld haf work to keep me busy. Peak draws nearer each day. Before long I wld be working six days a week, den seven eventually. Time shd pass pretty fast. As long as I dun think too much dat iz. Heez. Baobao, wanna you noe dat I support you. Take care of urself over there yea? I wld take care of myself in SG. I shall teach you a few simple dishes b4 u go over. Den u can cook for urself over there. Maybe I can cook for ya if I do get to pay u a visit? Meanwhile, I do haf to remind u dat since u r gg for so long, there r lots of things to pack! I can oredi picture us running ard getting things done at the last min. Keke. Like we always do. N at dat time I wld be pinching ur fats yea. So there. U promised to buy me Coaches! Haha. Actualli, all I want is dat u take good care of urself. =) It took me a while to decide whether I want to publish this post anot. I m afraid dat this wld bring some more worries n hesitation to Baobao after he reads it. But what the heck, the point is to overcome this challenge tgt. The two of us. I haf had enuf of struggling wif my inner feelings. I wld juz write them out n see how things go den. The most impt thing is Baobao noes I support him.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
