I m feeling rather confused now becoz it doesnt feel veri real to be at home, to be in Singapore as a whole. I spent the whole of yesterdae rotting at home, not having done a single proper thing at all. I was supposed to clear my wardrobe to make space for current n new clothes, but I dint get down to doing it yest becoz when I opened my wardrobe, I realised I dint noe how to start. Before I set off for US, I had oredi done one round of elimination, having thrown away realli old clothes which I dint wan animore. However, the three sacks of clothes which I moved bac from hall added nothing but woes to my wardrobe. For the past two days, Mummy stored my clothes in her wardrobe.
To be frank, I haf been feeling realli guilty in the States becoz Mummy has wanted mi to clear my wardrobe since like 2 years ago. Of coz, I made up some excuse each time she nagged n managed to get away wif it. When I was in the States I felt realli bad bout having done dat becoz it was a simple request n yet I failed to fulfill it. I finalli got round to doing it todae, but the end results was way from satisfactory. I onli managed to make space for the clothes which were stored in Mummy's wardrobe, but none for new working clothes, which obviousli was more impt.
Been feeling realli lethargic, n in fact I feel disgusted by how I haf spent my past two days. Maybe it was jet lag, I went to sleep at 7-ish yest evening, shortly after dinner, n woke up onli becoz Mummy woke mi up to go take a bath b4 I slept again. I ended up watching shows from Crunchyroll all the way to 5am. Urgh. Such a lack of discipline iz realli undesirable.
There r so mani things on my to-do list, but I havnt done ani of it. Sigh. Been doing sth excessively though - EATING. I m a lazy pig ard the house. The onli chores I did were shredding the meat Mummy used to cook mee hoon todae, frying the luncheon meat n stir-frying the ginger for the sesame oil chicken.
Confirmed the date of my first day of work todae. Itz gonna be 13 August 2007. Hmmmm, I hope for the best at work. =)
I m looking forward to thiz Sat becoz itz the first Sat I m bac in Singapore, n so I m looking forward to pator-ing wif Bui thiz Sat! Keke. Hmmm, I guess we wld see less of each other when I start work since his working hours differ so much from mine. He ends work earli while I dunno wat time I can knock off. Uncertainty lies ahead.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
