Juz bac from the market wif family. Went to walk walk n c if there was anithing to buy. The festivity n traditions seem to be fading. Recalled when I was young, mani of the stalls wld be open on the eve of the eve of CNY. Was pretty amazed bac den, as to mi market was a place which thrived in the day. But well, during dat time both my sis n I were shorter than our parents, but now we r taller than them! How time flies.
Todae can be said to be a day full of 'wrong-doings'. Nothing went rite. Until I reached home. Hmmm. Setting all prior unhappiness aside, was bout to start anew by gg home. Had convinced myself dat I wld take a cab home since I had like 3 bags, one of which was enormous. Arranged to meet Jun to share cab as she had wanted to go down town. Well, somehow I decided to take the sheltered way down instead of the usual route to the Hall IV bus stop, since we were taking a cab I tot. I stood for one second at the point which separated Halls IV n V, b4 I saw Jun walk towards the bus stop. As I made my way down, I saw thiz cab which stopped near the end of the staircase. The driver cld haf seen mi wif my big bags n hence he stopped. But b4 I cld flag to him, he drove off. Sigh. There it all began. We convinced ourselves there wld be more cabs but yup, there were alot gg in but none coming out, none available aniwae. Did c Spanc in a cab gg into NTU, n saw him coming out as well. Haha. It was unusual as he ought to be working at dat time. Turned out he was there to fetch his sis hu was sick n so he cldnt gif mi a ride. Sobz!
Waited, waited n waited. N den still waited. Saw a rather empty 179 n decided to hop on. I was literally banging into everione on the bus cuz my bags were so huge! Malu. Planned to take a cab from Boon Lay, but the queue was horrendousli long. Sigh. To the train station I went. Wif my big bags. The ride seemed to take forever. Hadnt eaten much except for the choc cornflakes snack sweetie YQ gave mi yesterdae. Tired but not exactli hungry (thank goodness, dun nd my biggest weakness launching an attack on mi at dat point in time), I stood by the window n stared outside. The onli good thing I cld derive from the circumstances at dat time was dat my tummy was flat cuz I hadnt eaten anithing much, n my waist felt 2 inches smaller. Looked at the reflection opposite mi, was quite happi wif wat I saw, though the phenomenon wldnt last. Looking further down though, I saw my big bags n decided to draw myself bac into reality. Let my tots wander n bout half a decade later, I reached Tiong Bahru.
Crawled bac home after coming out of the train station. There were a couple of instances I tot I was bout to faint, becoz the culprit sapping energy from mi wasnt juz the load, my body played a significant role. SIGH. It was my hardest trip home thus far. Throughout the train ride, I kept thinking bout how nice it wld haf been if I had managed to catch dat yellow cab. But as I walked home, I gave up the fantasy of comfort, the desire to whine, n merely wished dat I had a companion to walk the walk wif mi.
Reached home n went off to the market wif Mummy a while later. The same market I went to for supper juz now. Had dinner n bought some ingredients. But sth happened. On our way bac, it was drizzling so Mummy n I were each holding an umbrella. I was walking in front when I suddenli heard a man say, "Aiyoh" n I turned bac, to c Mummy on the ground. Mummy had fallen down, while out wif mi. Thank goodness she was alright. No abrasions nothing. But I still felt veri bad bout it. =( I wished the one hu had fallen down was mi.
As can be seen, my day started off on the foot, but as I m looking at my computer clock now, there r 4 mins more to the end of todae, so I can say dat my day iz gg to end on a pleasant note. Tmr's gonna be a better day. Cuz I haf two good meals waiting for mi! Keke. Mummy iz doing reunion lunch while we wld be gg to my big uncle's place for reunion steamboat dinner!
I m so glad I m at home. Helped wif the chores, put up the decorations ard the house, though I had left the ladder where I last stepped off it n had Mummy nagging mi to put it bac. Enjoying being ard my family, enjoying the aircon, enjoy having food appear in front of mi, n actualli enjoying Daddy saying, "Please pack ur table. At least stack the things neatly." Haha.
The smell of braised mushrooms iz filling the house. Haha. So looking forward to opening my eyes tmr morn, cuz by the time I wakie it wld be lunchtime! So Mummy dint even ask if I wanted ani breakfast. Keke.
I suspect I m having split personality right now. Becoz part of mi feels happi, but therez actualli another part of mi dat feels sad. Boo. I think I haf whined enuf for the nite, shall juz go make the choc snack I promised Sis. Till den!
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
