Sometimes I realli wish I dun haf to grow up. Along wif growing up comes more responsibilities n burdens. U become aware of more things n u noe u juz haf to do more. Sometimes I wish I can juz pretend I dunno certain things. Maybe itz wise to adopt escapism policy during certain times. Times when nothing but such a method works.
But yet as SBB once pointed out, I m too smart for my own good. I noe things I shd noe, but I too noe things I shd not noe. I m not toking bout affairs of the heart here, I m toking bout life. Juz life. In life, there r so mani things to be handled n dealt wif each day n I suddenli feel each happi day dat iz granted to mi iz a blessing. I hope for more of such days, but deep in my heart I m fully aware dat some day unhappi incidents will happen again. But well, thiz iz juz part n parcel of life.
Once again, my heart feels like it weighs a ton. Despite knowing such a feeling will go away, I cant help but face the truth. I guess the thing bout mi iz I wan to escape from some things, but I nv do realli escape from it. I force myself into thinking dat I m fine, onli to burst out when I cant take it animore. I m like thiz whether in terms of sch work, family or r/s. Shd I be rational n face the issue head-on when there iz one, or shd I allow myself some indulgence to be immersed in my own world for a while, n hope the issue will subside?
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
