As the years went by, I came into contact wif a larger circle of people n I had to face wif some ugly facts of life. Some people r downright backstabbers, some people r not loyal, some people turn their backs against u for their own benefits n there r also those who simply dun keep their words, may it be intentionally or unintentionally.
I m not referring to any particular person, or ani specific incident for dat matter. Itz juz, as I grow up, I come to the notion dat words which r being said by anione may not be words dat will be fulfilled. A veri classic example, one which I fell for one too mani times, is: "Hey we can go for xxxx some time" or "We can haf a meal tgt on xxx". Beware. Dun take these words seriousli becoz they might not come true. I truly bliv dat one has no harm in saying the things one says, n when one fails to keep one's words, one does not do it intentionally. It was during secondary school when I had the first contact wif the so-called "hard facts of life". Dat was oso when I realised there wld onli be more to come.
A few months bac when I stepped foot into adulthood, I thought to myself on dat special day of mine: I haf grown up, I haf matured. Indeed I realli felt so. Ever since I started PA n experienced working life, I learn tmani new things n felt veri wrong for mani things I did in the past. I acknowledged all the mistakes n dealt wif them bravely. I haf 'evolved' to a person which I havnt been for the longest time. One whom I truly like. Compared to the period of time when I dun even like the person I m, I m much happier now, wif myself n wif life.
Wif my new motto in life, I see everi obstacle as a challenge n I look forward to overcoming it becoz once I achieve dat, the dark clouds in my life wld den disperse n I wld see my clear blue sky again. I no longer bliv in talking bout things I m troubled over, except for some occasional mentions which slip from my mouth. I m not sure if not talking bout a problem iz the right solution, but there r times when a small problem can be magnified by simply the mere mention of it. So I choose to wait for the sky to be clear again. It works most of the time, which is how I haf managed to remain cheerful n optimistic throughout thiz semester, though it seems to appear to everione at the beginning of the sem dat I wld haf a hard time getting thru thiz sem. The truth iz I haf enjoyed thiz sem thoroughly. But I m not sure if it has become a habit not to talk bout ani problems I may face, or I haf been resigned to the fact dat I shd deal wif my own problems myself. But somehow, I find it veri hard to accept when at times I choose to talk bout my problems, the person whom I haf 'confided' in doesnt seem to understand. Maybe itz becoz ppl onli c what they c, nothing beyond.
I am Missy Rissy.
I believe in living the world, n living your worth.
I want to be happy more than anything else.
I want to be who I am.
I am who I am.
